Civil Servant Hunter’s S-class Resignation Log - Chapter 281
Civil Servant Hunter’S S-Class Resignation Log Chapter 281
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“It’s so fascinating. “The more I know, the more my expectations seem to break.”
“Do I have to live up to your expectations?”
Julian laughed at the blunt answer.
“I have a very good sense of things, perhaps thanks to my mother who was a fortune teller. After becoming an awakened person, I gained a sense of ability that surpasses even L-class. So the world wasn’t fun. Everything worked as expected. “Except just one.”
“me? “So are you interested?”
“In the first place, curiosity is the most dangerous thing. Anyway, this time it’s surprising again. “I didn’t know you were such a sensitive person.”
“Where are you looking! “I’m a very sensitive person, right?”
“That’s right. If it were me, I would have been so anxious to take care of myself that I wouldn’t have looked back…” I
certainly don’t think Julian would have felt guilty enough to suffer from nightmares. At the very least, he may have brushed it off as soon as he found out that the real cause of Baskar’s destruction was not himself but the manager.
but.
“I am not you.”
I didn’t particularly envy that kind of disposition. Because you are yourself and others are strangers.
“That is correct. “That’s why I like you.”
Julian’s eyes narrowed. It wasn’t a smile meant to make my appearance stand out, but just because I was happy.
When we first met, he appealed to me for my lovely appearance, but after some time, he put that aside and started smiling naturally.
To be honest, it looks better now than before.
“But it’s a bit difficult to walk around like this all the time without being able to sleep.”
“Why are you in trouble?”
“Because sufficient sleep is good for your health. I want to play with you for a long time, but what if I die quickly? “I’m really worried because he’s a hundred years older than me.”
“You son of a bitch!”
Is the reason you came all the way from America to make fun of yourself and call yourself an old man?
Seong Ja-rim, who heard the most unpleasant words, became irritated and tried to hit Julian’s shin. Although the saying that it surpasses L-class in terms of persimmon is not a lie, I quickly avoided it and ended up failing.
“I’ve already lived for over 130 years. Do you think I can’t live any longer? I will live longer than you. “I will live so long that I will see you put in a coffin!”
“It’s nice to hear that.”
Julian, smiling brightly, stepped closer to Seong Ja-rim just as he backed away to avoid a kick to the shin.
“If you really want to achieve that dream, put aside your regrets. “That way you can sleep well.”
“what?”
“The reason you keep dreaming about the past is because of your regrets. To be honest, that’s how it looks to me.”
Seong Ja-rim’s face suddenly distorted at the nonsense.
What a regret. Yes, you can see it that way. But why?
“You haven’t forgotten a single word you shouted on the 11th floor of the labyrinth, right? Unlike the monsters there who tormented you, the inhabitants of that planet accepted you. “I felt sorry for you for being bullied by that guy.”
“What is that?”
“Is it possible that those who did that would come in your dreams and curse you? Why are you imagining things that those people didn’t even do? “Are you that imaginative?”
Seong Ja-rim was rarely speechless. Strangely, this kind of thing was not uncommon when talking to this guy.
Even Kang Se-jun and Yoon Seo couldn’t stop me.
“That’s just a regret. “You can’t sleep and have dreams like that because you keep telling yourself that you should feel guilty about them.”
“….”
“The real cause is already dead. You too have suffered for decades because of that. “Isn’t it time to shake things off a little?”
There was nothing wrong with what Julian said from beginning to end.
Regret…. He might be right. In fact, the residents of Baskar did not curse me as they died.
Everything that happened in the dream was just her imagination.
“…How could you forget that? “Anyway, it’s true that I killed him.”
“So you’re going to keep coming up with such ridiculous fantasies? “Isn’t that an insult to the dead?”
“what?”
Seong Ja-rim raised his eyes. However, Julian did not back down even when his eyes were shining with life.
“Why are you angry? That’s right. I didn’t do anything like that, but don’t you think it would be really bad if someone else imagined that I did the worst thing and suffered alone? “Don’t you?”
Seong Ja-rim was embarrassed. The anger that had begun to boil at the unexpected words dissipated all at once.
The residents of Baskar were worried about themselves instead of criticizing them even though they were dying by their own irrational hands.
Don’t be so distressed, this isn’t your fault…
“It’s okay, Seong Ja-rim. We will not die by your hands. You did nothing wrong. So don’t feel guilty. “This is just a problem on our planet.”
Then, I suddenly remembered the will Elona left before she died.
A tear fell from Seong Ja-rim’s eyes.
Truly friendly people. What kind of ridiculous imagination did I have about those people?
“Why are you stuck in a time that doesn’t exist? Your reality is here. “Stop wandering and come back to the time you live in.”
“…I can’t believe I’m getting this advice from a chick. “All these things happen in life.”
Seong Ja-rim let out a deep sigh and pressed his eyes with his palms.
What’s even more ridiculous is that I didn’t notice it myself until Julian pointed it out.
“There are times in life where a little chick can be of great help, that’s it.”
“You’re not small.”
When Seong Ja-rim wrinkled his nose, the guy laughed again.
He’s always been a guy with a smile on his face, but he seemed to smile especially well today.
“For some reason, I felt like I had to meet you this early in the morning, but there was a reason. It’s amazing because this is the first time I’ve had a sense of something related to you. “It’s fun and I’m happy.”
“Ugh… I’m not that good.”
Seong Ja-rim was disgusted, saying it felt like some kind of stalker was following him. Julian immediately made a sad expression.
“Thanks to me, I was able to shake off a bit of my regret, but isn’t that too much?”
“If you stop acting like a stalker, I might be more cute to you.”
“You haven’t been that clingy lately. “The phone was also ringing.”
Julian pursed his lips and grumbled.
True to his word, he only called at dawn these days. However, it wasn’t like he was bothering me by saying various things.
I waited until Seong Ja-rim, who woke up from a dream and was out of breath, calmed down. And when I regained some breath, I clicked my tongue once.
That was all. Eventually, I heard the light noises of everyday life. The sound of turning a book, the sound of coffee being brewed, the sound of a teacup clattering. And the sound of evenly exhaled breathing mixed in between.
As I listened to that, my mind became calm. I never imagined that the sound of other people going about their normal day would bring me peace.
I didn’t even know that the other person would be Julian.
“Wasn’t that cute?”
Is that why? For the first time, the face of the guy who asked that question looked kind of cute.
“If I tell you it’s not cute, won’t I do it anymore?”
“…I will still do it. “Even if it’s not cute, it won’t bother you.”
Julian wrinkled his nose as if he didn’t like it. There were some grumblings about why my looks didn’t work out for me.
It’s probably at this point that I realize that things like people’s faces aren’t important to me. It was quite fun to still show your face because you were so confident about your appearance.
Oh, we’re in big trouble. You find that guy interesting.
It was very hot.
“They said it felt good, but it seems to be true.”
If he hadn’t come by today, I wouldn’t have had to think like this.
“Of course. I don’t lie or anything. “That’s something only people without confidence do.”
However, Julian, who was said to have a good sense, did not seem to have any sense in this regard. Not knowing what Seong Ja-rim’s intention was when he said that, he just said something else.
Does not matter. It’s better for me not to know.
“Hwaam.”
Then a yawn came out. I rarely fall asleep again after having a nightmare. Strangely, I felt sleepy today.
“I’m sleepy?”
Julian seemed quite happy about that, and his eyes lit up.
“Let’s go in and sleep.”
“…Why are you talking as if we’re going in together?”
“Then are you going to leave the people who came all the way here to see you outside? “On this cold morning?”
“Pretending to be cold when it’s not even winter.”
Seong Ja-rim looked at Julian from head to toe with a somewhat scary look on his face.
He became a little cute and fun, but that was it.
“This place is borrowed with Seo-ra’s money, so if you want to come in, get permission from Seo-ra.”
“You’re probably sleeping right now.”
“So, when you stand up while playing outside, tell me. “I’m sleepy and need to sleep.”
“what! Are you really leaving me behind?!”
“Then go back.”
“no! “It’s been a few months since we’ve seen each other again!”
“Then stay here.”
“I don’t like that either!”
It was none of my business whether I liked it or not. Seong Ja-rim wanted to immediately get into the warm bedding, roll up the blanket, and sleep.
As I turned away from him and walked towards the pool villa, Julian followed me. However, she was so heartless that she didn’t just slam the door in front of him, she locked it.
“Seongjarim!”
“See you in the morning. No, see you during the day. “I don’t feel confident getting up before noon.”
Seong Ja-rim yawned again, left him outside, went into her room, and lay down on the bed.
The early morning breeze wasn’t cold, but it was quite warm and I felt particularly comfortable under the cozy blanket.
Seong Ja-rim fell asleep, forgetting about Julian, who had come all this way to shake off his regrets.
* * *
When Seong Ja-rim opened her eyes, she was standing in front of the collapsed city of Baskar.
Ah, I thought I had shaken off my regrets, but I guess not yet. Well, there’s no way I can shake off something like that so quickly.
Still, it will end someday. As Julian said, this is an insult to the dead.
But something was strange. The residents who were dying along with the city were not cursing me, but were smiling and waving their hands.
And in front of her was her friend Elona.
Unlike the last time I saw her, she didn’t look miserable. She smiled, looking like she did when she was healthy and strong.
Elona left a greeting saying that she couldn’t leave because she wanted to say this and disappeared along with everyone else.
The collapsed city also scattered like a mirage.
An empty space with nothing left. Seong Ja-rim, who was standing alone in the distance, blinked slowly.
Soon, that space also collapsed like a sand castle being swept away by waves.
And what was revealed was a room filled with bright sunlight.
“…ah.”
I got up from my seat, wrapping the blanket around my body. The midday sun and bright blue sky were visible beyond the window that filled one wall.
It was my first time. The reason Baskar’s dream wasn’t painful.
It was the first time that there were no people cursing, and it was the first time that people smiled and said hello.
Seong Ja-rim, who was looking back on everything with a blank face, realized it too late.
I see From now on, they will never appear in my dreams again. Now I have shaken off all my regrets.
Although I will remember them forever, I will no longer struggle with terrible guilt….
“….”
Tears poured down from Seong Ja-rim’s eyes as she looked up at the sky.
The feelings of regret, guilt, and lingering feelings toward them slowly disappeared, swept away by my tears.
You can’t forget them. But now, instead of feeling sorry, the fun memories we had together seemed to come to mind first.
The lingering regrets in my heart were completely swept away.
Seong Ja-rim, who was quietly looking at the sky, soon listened to the voice coming from outside.
Seo-ra Yoon and Se-jun Kang. Rize’s voice often mixed with that of her precious friends.
And Julian’s voice mixed in with Seo-ra’s permission.
Those voices were letting her know that she was never alone.
I got off the bed and stood in front of the closed door. The sound that seemed to be blocked was loudly hitting my ears when I opened the door.
After standing still for a moment, she took a step toward the commotion.
widely.
With a light sound behind him, the quiet and desolate door that held Seong Ja-rim was completely closed.
Seong Ja-rim was no longer lonely.