Debut or Die - Chapter 305

of episode 305,

Raebin Kim was clearly nervous.

-It’s okay Ravin, you’ve done well so far.

-Of course~ Even if it doesn’t work, we don’t have ears to listen! But can’t it be?

-That’s right, I like Kim Rae-bin’s song!

-… thank you

At least after listening to the encouragement from the others, my complexion improved a little.

But when I opened the lid… .

– Then you go to number 2 4 5 like this? okay. Then our Ravin’s number is… .

-… It was 3 times.

-… !

His arrangement ended up not even in the rankings.

It’s literally a dropout.

It’s funny to explain it complacently like this, but it’s something no one could have guessed.

‘Kim Rae-bin’s arrangement was finally eliminated… … .’

This is because up until now, this guy’s arrangement has been put into the final draft to the point where it’s okay to call it ‘must have’.

Of course, it has never been fully adopted. However, at least a crucial part of the draft was reflected, and I was fully involved in the final work.

So, the members also talked about the next work like a habit.

-Now, our Rabin will do a great job arranging music for concerts~

But this time, it’s the first failure since debut.

‘That’s also because he couldn’t sleep for several days and hung on.’

“… … .”

I swiped through the material for the ‘Concert Arrangement Plan Blind Voting Results’, which also arrived via e-mail, and turned off the screen.

Then he folded his arms and leaned back.

‘There must be several reasons.’

The direction was different, the AR team poured in good drafts because it suited their taste, or they had plenty of time to work.

But why is it just now?

‘It’s as if Raebin Kim was pushed on his back by a slump at the most crucial moment.’

However, it is foolish to overturn the results of the vote right away.

Because of his personality, there’s no way he’ll be happy, and he can’t lower the quality just to take care of himself.

‘It’s just aggravating the situation without any benefit.’

But it was foolish to leave it as it is.

“… … .”

I got up from my seat.

It was to quietly go into the room after the morning concert meeting and find the impaled one.

But I didn’t have to go far. Rabin Kim was sitting on the sofa in the living room.

Next to them were Cha Yu-jin, who was quite resolute, Sun Ah-hyun, who had a worried expression, and Keun Se-jin, who looked puzzled.

Cha Yoo-jin held out something to Kim Rae-bin.

“Kim Raebin, eat this.”

Kim Rae-bin was wearing a coat and socks. It seems to have caught the guy trying to get out.

“I’m not going to eat. I’m in the studio for a while… .”

“Why are you in the studio?”

“… !”

The guys I was talking with turned to me. Kim Rae-bin swallowed and muttered in a low voice.

“If we don’t work on correcting our shortcomings, we won’t be able to produce results that people will be satisfied with in our next attempt… .”

“Do better next time Kim Raebin! It can’t be once. No problem, it’s okay!”

However, Kim Rae-bin was neither annoyed nor sympathetic to Cha Yu-jin’s words.

“I’m not sure if it’ll be okay or not.”

just muttered quietly.

“But since I failed this time, I can say that the probability of things not going well has increased. So, in order for the probability to decrease, you need to prepare more… … .”

“… … .”

After a short silence passed.

“Why don’t you get some rest, Rabin?”

“That’s right. We still have a lot of time left until the concert… I need to conserve my stamina… !”

Words poured out in an instant.

He must have thought that something could happen if he sent it to the studio as it is.

‘It seems so to me.’

I don’t know if I’d rather be angry or resentful, but that’s like an obsession. Big Sejin sat down next to him and patted him on the shoulder.

“Don’t monkeys sometimes fall from trees? Let’s take a break while thinking about our stage~ They say rest is important too?”

This… I’ll have to help.

I opened my mouth.

“I’ve been running without resting so far, so let me rest my head. Muscles also attach when you rest, but you didn’t rest too much.”

“Rest.”

In the end, Kim Rae-bin reluctantly nodded. I held back a sigh.

The timing was bad.

* * *

And days passed.

Kim Rae-bin did not go to the studio as promised, but his complexion was still not good. It seemed that the shock of the first failure had not yet gone.

Still, after spending a busy time filming a promotional video for the tour, it was around the time when I relaxed again because of some stages that had yet to be drafted.

‘It’s quiet.’

My body woke up early in the morning, probably because I couldn’t adapt properly to the changed schedule.

‘Should I drink some water?’

I left the room quietly so as not to wake my roommate.

And I found something unexpected. Light leaking from outside the veranda of the living room.

The light source is too close because it came from beyond the window. It looks like an electronic light… … .

‘invasion?’

There’s no way the crazy bastard climbing down the rope from the rooftop… Well, there must be.

I approached cautiously without limiting the scope of my thinking. Keep an emergency contact network open so that you can report it in case of emergency.

But what was out there… The person was right, but not a stranger.

“Kim Raebin.”

“… !”

Kim Rae-bin, who was sitting on the tile, looked back in amazement.

“Tongue brother.”

The appearance of wearing headphones or the program on the screen… Anyone could see it was working.

This kid secretly came out to the veranda at dawn and was squatting and working.

“What are you doing.”

“that is… .”

“I’m touching the song.”

Is this why you look so tired during the day?

The complexion could not be restored. This stupid guy… .

I closed the balcony door and strode in and stood in front of him.

“I am… .”

Kim Rae-bin hurriedly tried to clear his seat, but accidentally pressed the keyboard.

And the laptop window changed.

Kim Rae-bin… I was monitoring at the same time as I was working.

[Results of blind voting for the concert arrangement plan]

A group email with the same subject as the email I saw a few days ago.

‘This… .’

Looking at Kim Rae-bin’s recent appearance, I don’t think he had a productive thought to get motivated and motivated by watching it again.

I must have been shocked enough.

and… That email wasn’t just about the voting results.

In order to find a reasonable combination direction, I wrote anonymously why each number was selected and why it was not selected.

But if you look at the tone, you can roughly guess.

-Number 4 is the most fun.

-Number 2 is smooth and good to listen to

. I didn’t choose No. 13 because I thought it would spoil my taste.

“… … .”

That’s why we couldn’t even make pretentious sounds like four songs were the best but we had bad luck.

The members also voted together.

… And I also put one comment for each number there. Of course, even under Kim Rae-bin’s candidate song.

-The sound is excessive

“… … .”

For the past few days, Kim Rae-bin had posted the peer review and read it over and over in silence.

And among those words, there was not a single person who liked Kim Rae-bin’s song.

‘X foot… really.’

Could it be that he was trying to reflect this at dawn?

“listen.”

I sat in front of him and made eye contact.

“The majority is not always right. Actually, the public might like your arrangement more.”

“… … .”

“I don’t have to worry too much about this result. It’s just a concert arrangement.”

Raebin Kim suddenly replied.

“But my brother also judged that my arrangements were of poor quality.”

“… … .”

“Feedback that is excessive… Didn’t Moondae hyung give it to you?”

“I’m not a composer, so you don’t have to believe my words unconditionally. Your senses more than anyone else’s words… .”

“no!”

Rabin Kim lowered his head.

“My older brother’s judgment on songs has always been objective and good. I’ve never missed it, but I didn’t arrange it properly… .”

“… … .”

It feels like getting hit in the head.

This guy is more shocked by this.

‘I was noticing that my judgment on songs was particularly good.’

It was thanks to the characteristic ‘grabbing ears (A)’. He probably didn’t realize something unusual like a skill, but he recognized it right away because he had a good sense for music.

– Moondae hyung’s choice is always great.

I thought that I was criticized by the evaluator who trusted the most objectivity.

‘under… .’

The taste was bitter.

I won’t lie. In fact, even now, I don’t think Kim Rae-bin’s arrangement is very good.

‘It was too typical for Kim Rae-bin.’

I just knew that the AR team had come up with it.

And this trait is what I got from the status window, so it’s definitely guaranteed… … … .

‘Wait a status window?’

At that moment, a few examples of what I experienced suddenly pass through my head.

‘… … .’

I called up Kim Rae-bin’s status window.

I hoped it wasn’t, but there was a word I hadn’t seen there that was added at the very end.

!Status Abnormality: Damn Dodori

Pyo.

[Dodol-Yi-pyo]

: Lost in place,

‘Attribute: Maestro (S)”s reaction. sensory deterioration.

“By the way… By overdone, do you mean that the song has too much structure? So, a little less here… Can you tell me what this sounds like? Are you better than before? Will it get better?”

“… … .”

This… this won’t work

It was clear that this guy was completely out of his mind.

I get it now The reason Kim Rae-bin seemed solid against criticism was because he was able to come up with an alternative right away.

But now it seemed that the system had completely collapsed. Dependent.

‘X foot… .’

I received the headphones he gave me, but I didn’t wear them. asked instead.

“… How does that sound to you?”

I heard Kim Raebin whimper in a low voice.

“I do not know… . I tried to reflect as much as possible on what people said they liked and produce results that would be expected… I don’t know if I did it right.”

“Do what you want to do.”

“I don’t even know what I want to do… .”

I know what this means.

‘The balance is broken.’

I know that this guy has a humble side that sincerely tries to accept other people’s opinions.

But at the same time, he had faith in his abilities.

An instinctive level of conviction that if you like it, it’s good, and if you don’t like it, it’s not good.

So, even if feedback is given, it is absorbed based on one’s own judgment, whether it is interpreted on its own.

A style that runs all the way as it understands and is inspired.

‘It’s a basic personality.’

Look at T-Holic’s remarks, which were also interpreted as family.

But this time, things were a little different.

When reviews that were better than expected were pouring like crazy from an unspecified number of people, they were overwhelmed by the direct fire.

‘Rather, I lost my confidence.’

The thought that I shouldn’t disappoint, the pressure to produce perfect results destroyed the joy.

There, the personality of my pace is lost, so the song has no personality.

However, when I receive harsh criticism, I am completely embarrassed and care too much about the evaluation. Because it was the first ‘failure of ability’ in this guy’s life.

‘It’s a vicious cycle.’

I endured the swearing.

And after calming the guy who was about to burst into tears, he confiscated the laptop.

“Stop this for now. Even if it’s not this, you have a lot of work to do and you’re a talented guy. Let it go.”

“… … .”

“I’m not saying this because I don’t think I can do it, but if you do this and get insomnia, bigger troubles will happen.”

“Once you finish one… .”

“no.”

I confiscated my laptop. And in conflict, he said.

“… If you’re doing it for fun, it’s not my business to interfere, but right now it’s ruining your condition. You can’t even sleep.”

“… … .”

Rabin Kim lowered his head.

I tapped him on the shoulder and realized only that I was filthy incompetent at this sort of thing.

‘X feet.’

A countermeasure was needed.

* * *

Even after that dawn, Kim Rae-bin faithfully participated in the schedule.

But the witty feeling from before was shattered.

And one of the guys who noticed it found the reason in my room.

“Park Moon-dae, is that his laptop?”

Big Sejin said seriously.

“I’d rather just let it happen. That’s where you catch the kid.”

“… … .”

I shook my head roughly and answered a beat later.

A solution I’ve been grinding and polishing for days.

“Then get a mountain hut.”

“… ? what?”

I wasn’t kidding.

I remembered Kim Rae-bin’s ‘Abnormal Status’.

A counteraction of the Maestro characteristic that increases the production speed of a song that can be considered almost industrial.

Raebin Kim’s exceptional sense of deterioration.

‘In the end, I was obsessed with performance and efficiency, so there was a reaction.’

Then it’s simple.

Let’s do some non-productive creations that have nothing to do with testa performance.

So, I started planning a healing course with garbage-like efficiency that I had never considered in my life.

It is a training camp for self-development.

“just… Let’s go to the mountain at all.”

not a destination.