Debut or Die - Chapter 523
, you’ll get
a fatal disease Episode 523 Kim Rae-bin can’t perform on stage.
But (probably) the cause of it is that the steer days have already blown out of my head.
‘I’ll be thrilled.’
What the hell can you say when you hold a guy who has no memory? It could be because of fatigue, so don’t worry too much and send me back to my room to rest.
But everyone knew that this was bullshit.
‘Fatigue is what freezes to death.’
Then you should have exploded when you debuted when you slept three hours a day. No matter how you look at it, this is the trace of steer Kim Rae-bin.
Fortunately, the member of the same age who would have spent the most time with the person concerned was here.
And coincidentally, he was at the dorm because he had no evening schedule.
Tell me anything you doubt about what happened to Lavin during Steer.
Let’s get rid of it.
Cha Yoo-jin, who was called to the kitchen, hardened her expression seriously instead of pouting at my question.
This guy seems to have been a bit worried about this situation too.
what a lot happened But Kim Raebin was fine. [Of course, he wasn’t as happy as he is now. However, there was no extreme despair or mental issues.]
Hmm.
It was a rather unexpected answer.
-Kim Rae-bin was fine during his days as a steer. (Cha Yoo-jin’s testimony)
So, at least as long as you remember, steer Kim Rae-bin also had no objection to the stage, right?
that’s right.
Cha Yujin nodded and frowned.
A few days ago, I asked Raebin Kim a lot of questions. But Kim Rae-bin only said that he couldn’t perform. [Sometimes, it seemed like he didn’t even know the cause.]
Before Steer Kim Rae-bin’s memory disappeared, he tried to investigate, but failed.
I nodded.
That’s a good testimony.
So simple.
What?
Now look.
I marked with my finger on the table.
The last time you saw Raebin Kim during your time as Steer was when you went to America right after the group disbanded.
that’s right.
Cha Yoo-jin’s trip to America.
Even after putting a dot on it, I kept my fingers crossed.
However, Kim Rae-bin, whose memories came back from Stier, was a guy who even experienced military enlistment. You remember what happened after you went to America.
… Yep.
Just as Cha Yoo-jin worked at a garage in the United States, and Lee Se-jin A finally won the case, Kim Rae-bin also experienced something more during that period.
The only difference from the steer Kim Rae-bin you remember is this period.
– The period after the breakup of the group.
I said, shaking my hands.
So the problem arose after you went to America.
Oh.
In other words, the short period from the dissolution of Steer to the completion of the training center rises on the line of suspicion.
‘Of course, it’s under the assumption that Cha Yu-jin was well aware of Kim Rae-bin’s condition during Steer.’
This assumption is highly likely to be correct.
Cha Yoo-jin is a quick-witted guy. It’s a problem because I didn’t pay attention to it.
‘But it must have been a situation where I had no choice but to use it during Steer.’
In an extreme situation, humans can make things that didn’t exist in the first place, but those who did have them will add more.
However, if this guy says ‘there was no mental problem’ about a member of the same group and a close friend of the same age, it means that there really was no such thing.
Cha Yoo-jin, who had been listening to it, also readily acknowledged it.
OK. So what are we doing?
It’s a look that doesn’t doubt that there will be an answer for me. Thank you.
I nodded and, as always, opened my mouth at once.
You should think about that from now on.
… What?
Let’s think about it based on this information.
I want you to notice too.
I returned to the room after assigning the task to Cha Yoo-jin, who was flustered.
For reference, the roommate Kim Rae-bin, who was unable to perform on stage, was banging her head on the desk.
‘I told him to rest.’
It’s not resting, but it looks like it’s stretched out.
The guy wearing the headphones with the rabbit and energy drink engraved on it that he received from a fan at the beginning of his debut did not move.
… … .
It looks like he’s scared, or he looks like he’s dead.
‘That’s great.’
I’ll have to work this out soon. I sat down on my bed
what… In fact, Cha Yoo-jin said as if there was no way to come to mind right away, but in fact there was.
It was a method that even took a hit by saying ‘I will do it after the agreement’, so it was just aiming for a good timing rather than saying it right away.
Forced dig into the system right away.
I rubbed my chin.
‘If I dig in, I think something will come out.’
If you access the system once more like when you found Lee Se-jin A… .
[Wow, don’t even dream hyung!]
… … .
no… when did you hear It pops up before you even say anything.
I saw the big moon pop-up and shut my mouth.
what. I had nothing to say even if I felt reluctance to take Ryu Gun-woo’s body instead of him and access it.
‘Still, I think I’ll be able to do it more safely this time since I finished the first attempt safely.’
I responded as calmly as possible.
The pop-up went unanswered for a while, then popped up.
[Well then, I’ll try it, so please wait!]
What?
what is this again
‘The big moon.’
But there was no answer. Apparently, this guy had access to my system.
‘No, I can do it, so what’s the point of making you do it?’
It’s the cleanest thing to do by someone who has done this.
I called him a few more times, but as expected no answer.
‘Damn it.’
I stopped calling once again with a bitter mouth. If you’re connected anyway, you can interfere and become X, so let’s leave it for now.
As much as he lived through the status window, he had a high level of understanding of the system, so he might get an unexpected income.
‘Should I do something else first?’
I immediately turned my head and opened my mouth.
Rabin.
yes yes!
Kim Rae-bin, who was banging his head on the desk, raised his head.
As roommates, this is convenient.
I thought, ‘Do you really have no memory? Do you remember anything? Let’s think back to the situation at the time of the performance.’ Instead of saying things like
let’s see some work
yes?
I asked him to open the hard disk as if ripping off money.
Rabin Kim nodded with a puzzled expression.
These are the 7 songs I recently worked on.
On the screen of the heavy laptop he held out, several files were opened through a composition program.
I put on extra headphones from him and started listening to the tunes.
thanks.
no! But for what reason do you want to listen to the song… … .
I glanced at the guy’s complexion.
tension nervous confusion.
‘I’m conscious that there will be a story related to the stage.’
In this state, the only thing that really brings up the story is a handshake.
So I responded casually.
I was curious. Lately, it seems like I haven’t paid much attention to producing.
And smiled lightly.
It’s nice to be able to listen comfortably since we’re roommates.
brother… … .
The guy who said ‘No, he cared enough’ seemed to be quite impressed.
It means that you have succeeded in diverting attention.
‘good.’
I listened to the 7 songs repeatedly and grasped the structure, and after listening to his explanation, I pressed the play button several times.
It was to pass the time.
Oh~ Did you listen to Rabin’s song at Moondaemundae?
What are the members doing? do it with me!
After listening to it repeatedly like that, before I knew it, the guys who came out of their rooms and the guys who had finished their schedules joined in and enjoyed it together.
Seeing that there were also guys who wouldn’t come, it was clear that he had come because he was worried about Kim Rae-bin, and then sat down to look at the atmosphere and try to encourage him.
Now, let’s play number 3~
Eh!
clap clap clap
And in the atmosphere of this sudden hearing, Kim Rae-bin finally started to get nervous in a different way.
Soon, a soft ballad song with a relaxed and rhythmic feel smoothly filled the room.
After listening, Liu Chengyu smiled and said to the guy.
This song is so good, Rabin. I especially like the melody.
thank you! This is a demo version in which the top line is composed first and then the beat that matches the melody is composed… .
Finally, there is an immediate reaction without consciousness.
After a few songs had passed and I confirmed that the nervousness of his preparation had disappeared, I sneakily took action.
Oh Rabin~ How long have you been using those headphones? Why don’t you take a picture of yourself and post it on your account?
Sejin Sejin took advantage of the opportunity to talk to Raebin Kim, grabbed the laptop mouse again, and opened the screen explorer.
What Kim Raebin showed me earlier was the latest song collection folder. I picked 7 songs here.
‘But if I sort all the files in the folder by newest order… There was one more song between the seven songs.’
-62_06.wav
This is it.
I asked Raebin Kim as if I remembered it while looking at the file.
Did you make this song number 6 this time as well? The save date is recent.
oh that… It seems to be a song I made at a time when I can’t remember.
iced coffee.
It means that it was made when there was only the memory of Steer Kim Rae-bin.
In fact, I already knew.
‘I checked the file creation date.’
It was just that period.
But I naturally nodded.
I don’t remember making it, so it must have been awkward to introduce it. I guess I’ve heard of it though.
Yes, it is stored on my PC, so of course I went through the verification process!
I asked the guy who quickly nodded.
Was there a part in this song where you said, ‘If I had made it, I wouldn’t have made it like this’. Regardless of whether the song is good or bad, in terms of the composition method.
At that moment, the other guys who were talking quietly quietly shut their mouths. It seems that the guys who were usually not very aware of the situation have squeezed out the unnoticed as much as the situation. Good job.
Kim Rae-bin’s face became more bloody for a moment as if he was lost in thought, but he soon opened his eyes and answered.
ah! In fact, I felt a sense of discomfort.
okay?
The song seemed to be made with the members of our group in mind, but it didn’t have my part!
uh?
At that moment, Bae Se-jin could not stand it and intervened.
What does that mean?
therefore… I tend to be conscious of the characteristics of each performer when composing with the owner of the song decided.
Kim Rae-bin eagerly explained.
This song seems to have been made in a similar way, but… There is no part that seems to be assigned to me!
Bae Se-jin hardened his expression.
therefore… It seems like this song was written for Testa, but you’re the only one who doesn’t have a part?
As far as I’m concerned, yes.
Rabin Kim nodded.
So, the person who made it in the first place… I guessed that maybe he didn’t intend to perform on stage… .
… … .
Kim Rae-bin seems to have guessed this when he was banging his head on the desk earlier.
‘hmm.’
I looked at the file on the screen again.
Steer Kim Rae-bin was clearly trying to find memories of his testa days in order to ‘play the stage again and contribute to this team’.
In this situation, of course, wouldn’t they have tried to make a group song assuming that they would perform on stage after regaining their memories?
‘At least I wouldn’t have tried.’
If so, this means that Kim Rae-bin tried to put his part in the song, but failed.
That is to say, his resistance to the stage was strong and determined to the extent that he did not put his part in ‘not’, but ‘can’t’.
‘… … .’
I held back a sigh. I was complacent.
Everyone was relatively less worried because Steer Kim Rae-bin tried to compose music and seemed to adapt well to the team, but in fact, he might be the one who worried the most.
‘I’ll have to take a more delicate approach.’
I deliberately talked to Kim Rae-bin calmly and leisurely.
Anyway, you want to be on stage right now.
of course!
Kim Rae-bin answered at once. I smiled faintly.
That’s it. There are seven people, but if you try, there will be one that works.
I tapped Sejin on the shoulder. A backup came soon.
Ah, then~ The most important thing is to think that you want to do these mental things! Ravin has already met the conditions, right?
ugh right… ! If you don’t worry too much… I wish.
… ! Yes, thank you!
Kim Rae-bin’s complexion brightened as if he felt a little relieved.
And I thought I need to find this guy’s memory soon.
But that night
[I don’t have memory data, hyung!]
I almost hit my head on the head of the bed.
‘No?’
[yes… . I went to the terminal that hyung said, but it wasn’t there.]
Such a fucking thing.
As I cursed at the system, a small pop-up appeared that seemed to have died.
[sorry. Maybe it’s because I don’t have enough skills to find it… … .]
No, that would not be the case.
‘He’s not someone I would have found roughly.’
If the big moon doesn’t come this far, there’s a high probability that it won’t exist.
then… .
If the memory did not go back to the system,
the memory of steer Kim Rae-bin would still be with you.
At that moment, realization came.
I was mistaken.
Because it is a ‘preview’, I thought that the moment the function ended, Kim Rae-bin’s memories of his steer days were also recovered by the system.
‘But it wasn’t like that.’
It was said that Kim Rae-bin in his days as Steer was not coming out as absorbed by himself.
… … .
After sitting on the bed and examining the flow of reasoning and thought several times, I finally came to a conclusion.
‘I have to make a knocking sound for a guy who’s locked up in a room.’
I needed stimulation.
* * *
After not being able to properly stand on the stage of the congratulatory song.
While resting in his room at the dorm, Kim Rae-bin continued to worry.
‘What is the cause?’
Regarding the rational reason why he suffered extreme spasticity on stage.
In fact, he had tried several solutions during these two days.
He received gentle advice from Bae Se-jin and Seon Ah-hyun about expert counseling, and Ryu Cheong-wu recommended that he accompany him on physical leisure activities such as shooting and mountain climbing.
But none of that could alleviate his anxiety. It’s because you’re fine during practice, so you won’t know until you really start ‘acting’.
So, Kim Rae-bin, who became more obsessed with the cause, guessed like this in a slightly depressed state.
‘Maybe the problem is that I don’t remember.’
I even remember Cha Yoo-jin!
Park Mun-dae dismissed him as ‘it’s just a matter of method’, but when this situation came to Kim Rae-bin, he had to worry and reflect.
However, he also tried not to obsess over the stage itself because he knew that the more he thought about it too deeply, the more he would be swallowed up by it.
Because you already had experience.
‘It’s a similar situation to when I had a slump about composing before.’
Kim Rae-bin, who was touching the composition program, nodded resolutely.
Then I suddenly remembered.
‘Wait composing?’
At that moment, like a fireworks display, a flash of light exploded in Kim Rae-bin’s head!
If this situation resembles a songwriting slump, how about a similar response?
To enjoy the stage only as a hobby in a state of anonymity.
‘At that time, with the help of the hyungs, I even created an account called Byeolbyeolgok!’
When I thought of the situation at the time, a warm feeling settled in my heart.
It was hope and happiness.
In a slightly refreshed state, he got up to convey his reasoning and found his roommate Park Moon-dae right next to him… .
I was going to say it anyway, but it went well. A teaser for this album.
yes?
How about making an intro song and putting it in? As short as possible within the current period.
Testa sometimes put a lot of effort into teasers to create a detailed world view, but there were times when he didn’t.
This time, I thought of the latter and gave strength to the album itself.
However, adding an intro only now may mean that the work is becoming overloaded in a way, but Kim Rae-bin nodded happily.
The plan Dae-hyung Moon said always went well!
I’m good! Since this is an introduction video for the album, we will organize it well so that each element and member can appear harmoniously.
And this time, I was thinking of bringing up my business, but… .
No. You will do it alone.
… ??
The intro of this album is four solo songs.
Kim Rae-bin doubted his ears, but Park Moon-dae was still smiling faintly.
make the song you want to sing
Kim Rae-bin’s eyes became far away!