Debut or Die - Chapter 63

If you can’t debut, you’ll get a fatal disease Episode 063

“… We will bring in a new team member.”

“ah!! The choice of the Bakmundae participant is out!”

At the MC’s cry, the prize money item disappeared from the display board, and the words “Recruiting new members!”

The audience cheering and the judges clapping their palms for joy flowed to other screens.

This evil was obvious.

‘Thirty-nine million won… … .’

flew into the air

Still, in the long run, it was an unavoidable choice.

Having one more participant means that the number of fans who like the group will also increase. And these are usually multiplied, not added. The amount of money you can earn varies.

It was an investment that could earn more than 5000 in the long run.

The problem was the following.

“Then, who is the last member selected by Park Moon-dae?”

The rest of the participants were nervous again on the screen.

“The participant I chose was… … .”

No matter who you choose, it’s a perfect time to arouse resentment from the fans of the contestants who missed out.

So avoid it.

“I am the 7th place participant chosen by the shareholders.”

“ah!”

The crowd’s murmur grew. Most seemed convinced or relieved.

‘… The production team seems to be enjoying it too.’

That’s a little hot.

“Participant at Park Moon University left the choice to the shareholders!”

The MC glanced at the prompter and eagerly led the progress, and soon a candidate for 7th place appeared on the billboard.

And the stuck guy…

“congratulations! Lee Se-jin participant!”

I almost heard it.

‘How did you end up eating rice cake?’

Perhaps because of his child actor activities, public awareness was high, so he benefited from the people who secretly voted for the last episode.

‘… There’s nothing special.’

It was already spilled water. I gave way to Lee Se-jin, who staggered up to the podium.

“… thank you.”

As if he was barely able to express his feelings, Sejin Lee said a few words and then lowered his head. It was to the extent that the fans covered up that he was upset because he was not expecting it.

The MC guided Lee Se-jin to join the successful seats. Lee Se-jin passed me by and murmured softly.

“… thank you.”

I just nodded. I guess I wanted to be.

‘I want to go in too.’

It felt like my legs were going to cramp.

How long are you planning to keep it?

However, the MC continued the process with me standing next to him.

“Now there is only one thing left! 〈Re-listing! This is the name of the group of contestants who will debut as Idol Co., Ltd.!”

The obvious explanation followed that the opinions of shareholders were collected through the Internet.

And a dazzling logo appeared on the display board.

A capital ‘T’ and a triangle with a disjointed top cleverly merged, and colorful glitter effects bounced off the sides and top before settling into a small diamond mark.

– Your investment verified.

-Your Idol, Your Star

-TEST + STAR

-〈TeSTAR〉

“The group name chosen by our shareholders… This is TeSTAR!”

“… … .”

your name has changed

As far as I know, the name of the male idol who will debut on this program was ‘STier’.

Looking at it, I thought it would be that way again this time because it was listed as a candidate with an explanation attached as ‘Star + Tier’ on the homepage.

Maybe it’s because the members have changed quite a bit, including myself, so a different name came out.

Apparently, the name of the car was decided last time.

‘… Wasn’t Steer better?’

I honestly didn’t know that a star would have a group name that takes up more than half of their name.

I was a bit confused… Well, the name of the group had to be quite strange.

“A trophy with the group logo will be awarded to the seven members of TeSTAR!”

Then Youngrin came up and handed me the trophy. There was only one trophy in the shape of a graph soaring into the sky.

‘I was put up to do this.’

If you carry that and pass it on to the kids, it seems to be the end.

“congratulations.”

“thank you.”

After shaking hands lightly with Youngrin, I received the trophy with a cushion on it.

Young-rin looked at me with a smile on her calm eyes.

“I hope to do good activities in the future.”

“yes. thank you.”

I murmured thanks over and over again.

And as it is, I walked quickly toward the place where the successful candidates were standing.

The passers-by had already jumped up from their seats, probably drunk with the atmosphere.

“and!”

“Give me a trophy?!”

I handed over the trophy to the guy in front without regret.

Then, this time around the trophy, everyone put their arms around each other and started making a fuss.

‘My shoulder hurts.’

The area around her was sore from being beaten alternately by Cha Yu-jin and Keun Se-jin.

There was no numbness anywhere from my shoulder to my feet, but thanks to the adrenaline, only my brain was active.

The MC’s voice was heard from a distance.

“Congratulations to TeSTAR on your debut!”

Firecrackers for stage effects exploded spectacularly. I listened to the cheers of the people as I stood between the trophies and the winners.

and that moment.

A status window pops up.

[Successful debut!]

You made a successful debut through a famous audition program!

!Time limit: meet (great success) ! Abnormal Status: ‘Debut or Death’ removed!

: Check the truth ☜ Click!]

‘… really?’

Status window turned on. The abnormal condition was gone. finished.

Somehow I didn’t feel it.

I don’t know the purpose of the status window, so I guess it’s because I’m suffering from an ominous prediction that the status ailment might be prolonged somehow.

‘I never thought it would disappear so neatly.’

I blankly closed the status window. Then, the text at the bottom of the remaining pop-up caught my eye.

Originally, the location where the reward should be written.

‘… for a moment.’

What is this.

[Truth Check ☜ Click!]

Truth?

I reflexively clicked on the phrase.

“Is it Moondae?”

For a moment, my vision was blurred.

and blackout.

* * *

A skinny high school student was lying on a mattress holding an old smartphone.

Every time I moved, the mattress creaked.

The WiTube screen was playing on the broken screen of the smartphone. The picture quality was not good because I barely connected to public Wi-Fi.

However, thanks to the skillful filming of the cameraman, the charm of the singer on the screen still caught the eye.

‘It was fun.’

High school student Park Moon-dae looked at the video screen that had returned.

The latest fancams uploaded on this account ended with the ‘2X0412 Reloadon Han River Festival’ I just saw.

This account ‘Gun1234’ was an account that mainly uploaded fan cams of singer idols.

In particular, I mainly uploaded people with low awareness, and even that looked cool.

‘It seems like they’re recognizing me.’

It felt good because it seemed like I was cheering for someone who seemed to have nothing to do with it.

‘I hope they upload more often.’

There are not many things left to happily spend time without spending money.

It was the same on WeTube, where you can watch just by watching ads.

Even though I watched it in low quality on Wi-Fi that keeps disconnecting, there were few videos that I could watch with my heart pounding.

I heard that there is almost no revenue from direct cams because all advertising revenue goes to the singers who watched it, but I was grateful that they continued to upload.

Moondae Park, who was thinking about it, scrolled down and wrote a comment.

-Keundal: GUN1234 always enjoys watching direct cams. Thank you for uploading.

I knew that this account had never given any particular feedback to viewers until now.

Even when Youngrin’s direct cam was a hit, he never left a single comment.

However, since he might be looking at it, Park Moon-dae checked for spelling mistakes and pressed the write button.

-This person attends every

time

lol

I was going to reply, but suddenly I didn’t feel like it, so I quit.

‘It’s not like I have anything to say… … .’

When I tried to talk about myself, I was speechless.

The room, which was embarrassing to call it a house or a house, was quiet.

There was nothing like a daily routine.

When I think about the last time I did anything with enthusiasm, I remembered the time when everything was normal.

when your parents were there.

It seems like it was just yesterday, but in fact, years have passed.

And it seemed that he had been stuck somewhere for years. Or maybe you’re actually dreaming.

Maybe that’s why he started focusing on the videos uploaded by that account, the boy thought.

Seeing people singing and dancing passionately even though there is no sign of improvement in their situation is comforting or surrogate satisfaction.

‘… now.’

Tomorrow will probably be Monday.

Park Moon-dae dreamed and closed his eyes on the mattress.

And time passed again. Unlike the surroundings that flow and flow, somehow Park Mun-dae himself has not changed.

A terrible thing happened at school. I did it because I had to quit. Quitting didn’t change anything.

Well then, isn’t it enough to stop living?

‘I know.’

But I didn’t really want to die.

Park Mun-dae found a part-time job, but the job was soon cut off.

And the video upload of ‘gun1234’ also stopped.

‘why… ?’

After thinking about it, Park Moon-dae eventually sent a note with the account information. It was the day when I failed to find a new part-time job. Of course no reply came.

And after a while, all the videos in the account disappeared.

Only short texts remained on the empty pages.

————=

[Closed while playing games. ㅅㄱ]

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Game.

Moondae Park installed a mobile game. There was no money to buy a desktop or game console.

However, the old smartphone couldn’t run mobile games properly and broke down after a terrible fever.

Park Moon-dae somehow felt very tired.

I haven’t done anything, so I’m not tired.

‘tired.’

tired of living

Moondae Park terminated the broken smartphone. And the old single room did not extend the contract.

It’s been a long time since I ate a proper meal. So the money left in hand was just right.

It meant that it would be over if we booked a motel and bought sleeping pills.

‘Because they say that a lot of people die in motels.’

The day was so cold that I couldn’t bear to fall into the water or climb the mountain. Because I felt like giving up halfway through.

If he died in his room, he would be left to rot for more than a month.

‘sorry.’

Park Moon-dae took a room and apologized to the blunt owner.

Then, after going into the room, I lay down on the bed and swallowed a sleeping pill.

Sleep came like death.

after a while

Waking up on a dirty motel bed, breathing in… … .

It was me.

* * *

“Heo Eok.”

I let out a breath.

“Are you okay?”

Someone from the side tapped me on the back. When I turned my head, I saw Sun Ah-hyun’s worried face.

“… I’m tired for a while.”

I barely evaded and stretched myself out.

Time seemed to barely pass. Thanks to that, it seems that I stumbled for a while.

The atmosphere was still the same as the other people didn’t even notice because the successful applicants were surrounded.

I broke out in a cold sweat. My brain was cluttered.

‘gun1234’, the owner of the video account that Mundae Park originally liked.

‘It’s me.’

It was an account I deleted when I started public life.