I Will Live As An Actor - Chapter 17

I Will Live as an Actor Episode 17 Child

Actor.

Filming a drama is a series of hardships. Not only do they have intense schedules, but they also stay up all night. How could an actor faint while filming a script? Of course, child actors are excluded from these situations. Although it was before the Labor Standards Act for children was clearly established, physical requirements were taken into consideration.

“No one! Don’t just pass by there, but go and see the bottle! If you catch it once, the appetite you lost in the scorching sun will come back!”

“Look at him, really?”

“How have you been fooled? Is there a saying that even a dead man would kick his ass and leave if he grilled a seasonal bottle of fish for no reason? Don’t be like that, just come back to work! I’ll give you my best service!”

There was only the last filming left. Because it was an emotionally demanding scene, the famous producer gave us two days of rest. However, as I was sitting in the corner of the room and just reading the script, I felt a bit tingly for some reason, and even though my mother’s business skills had improved a lot, I still didn’t feel like it, so I woke up early.

“Do I really have to grill this?”

“Even if you grill it, it’s delicious even if you scoop it up thick and dip it in vinegar. To stew it, just put kelp in water, cut it into large pieces, and add half and half red pepper and green pepper. If the store clerk in front of you asks about the seasoning, he’ll tell you. “We’ll take care of everything!”

“Huh? I’m so small, I know everything!”

As I made and ate various things with the leftover fish I sold in my past life, I learned literally all kinds of things. It was thanks to that experience that I was able to take care of other merchants’ pockets even when selling a single fish. My mother looked at me strangely once in a while, but didn’t say anything when I told her she had seen it in a cookbook. It was while he was soliciting customers in front of a fish stall.

“Kook, is that the kid you filmed with?”

My head turned to my mother’s words. I saw Yeonsu walking with her mother through the maze-like streets lined with fish stalls at Namhang Market. I heard that filming for Yeonsu Island is finished as of today? Why did I come here instead of going to Seoul?

“Did you come because you needed it early?”

I recited a sales pitch without realizing it. My mother was exchanging friendly greetings with Yeonsu’s mother. Didn’t they say it’s a story about a woman’s mother? Yeonsu’s bright disposition seemed to resemble her mother. He even held my mother’s hand, if it was okay, when she waved her hand because the fishy smell was on her hand.

“Oppa, didn’t I know that filming was over…?”

“I know, because the director told me.”

“But why didn’t you come to the filming site? It’s the last time… I can’t stay here any longer because of filming for another broadcasting station…” “I can’t

see you selling fish, so go ahead. I can’t come because of the customers behind me.”

Yeonsu bit her lip. It was no longer possible to take care of it just because it was cute. After filming this drama, Yeonsu and I will never have a relationship again. She is an actress I saw in my past life, and I will grow up like that. I had no intention of lighting a child’s heart on fire for no reason. I bowed my head slightly to Yeonsu’s mother and shouted at the top of my voice.

“There are very delicious bottle fish! Just don’t pass by and take a look, everyone! Even if you die or wake up, you will never be able to find a seasonal bottle fish like now!”

Does she know this cry?

That it means that I and the world I live in are different.

* * *

A small farewell party was held at a large pot house facing the night sea where seagulls cried mournfully. The longer the filming period, the more a family-like bond develops. Yeonsu was the child female protagonist and was very affable, so she dominated the filming set with cuteness. That’s why I was invited to this special farewell party.

“Director Yoo, out of many places, I chose this as the venue for the farewell party. It’s not that I don’t like Daepot Restaurant, but it’s not the time for Eola to come.”

“I also wanted to go to a meat restaurant. But Yeon-soo suggested that we go to a daepot restaurant. I also want to go to the place where the seniors and the filming team go every day as if taking attendance stamps. I think they were considerate because we had our next filming scheduled. This is the place. “At least it’s a place where the youngest members of the filming team can rest comfortably.”

“Yeonsu is such an amazing day! I don’t know why my son grows up so early these days!”

Yeonsu was walking around the large pot house, saying goodbye to the filming crew. If it was short, it was short; if it was long, it was a long filming period. During that time, I made many memories and made friends with people at the broadcasting station. The filming team also looked at Yeonsu with love. Perhaps because he learned acting from a young age, he was not shy and played his role well without being discouraged even among so many adults.

“Yeonsu, don’t forget to eat a lot. The bindaetteok here is very delicious.”

“The director of photography, eat a lot too. You lost some weight because you worked hard while filming.”

“Yeonsu, thank you for your words, but look at my stomach. Is this a belly that has lost weight? Ugh?!”

Kim Deuk-hyeong’s joke made the Dapot restaurant noisy. Yeonsu was with her mother, and she looked around the Dapot House all the time as if she was looking for someone. However, as if he couldn’t find it, he seemed to be appeasing his disappointment by sipping a carbonated glass. Park Soo-young, who saw this, implicitly asked Yu Myeong.

“Director, England can’t come today?”

“I guess it will take quite some time to organize the stall since the bottlenose fish is in season these days. That’s why my mother said she wouldn’t be able to attend to help out.”

“is it so?”

Yeonsu tightly pursed her lips at Yumyeong’s words. Seeing that, Park Soo-young lightly clicked his tongue, took a sip of soju, and spoke softly.

“Normally, he’s like a young old man, but he doesn’t know anything at times like this.”

* * *

“Mom, it hurts a lot, right?”

In a small room with yellow wallpaper, I massaged my mother’s arms and legs, which were tense from hard work. The bony, dry hands made the viewers feel heartbroken. Did you lead the cart with these hands? How much burden did he carry on his narrow shoulders? Thoughts passed through my mind quickly. Why didn’t I know that in my last life? The fact that my mother devoted herself so much to me. no. I wanted to pretend not to know. Because I’m that kind of guy.

“Stop it, Mom, it doesn’t hurt.”

She was a mother who never showed signs of distress, fearing that her son might be worried. Didn’t you live like that in your last life? Even as he was withering away, he was looking at his baby like a hedgehog.

“Do you think it’s fun to act like Kook-ah?”

“not too bad.”

“Oh, I wonder if I don’t care about my son. The people at Boy Broadcasting Station at that time were really nice people. How much time is left for filming?”

“Yes, there is one left.”

I nodded briefly. Filming in Yeongdo was nearing its end. But I don’t plan on acting again. In Korea, jobs for child actors are limited. Isn’t the appearance fee similar to that of a minor role? It was impossible to travel all over the country to get those few seats. Even more so.

“Do you want to continue acting?”

“I have no intention of doing so in the future. There is no one to look for me anyway.”

Didn’t you feel it yourself in your past life? That paradise cannot exist because human desires exist. The same goes for actors. Because the actor exists, because of his selfishness and desire, there can be no end to acting. If I ever had to act again, I wasn’t sure I wouldn’t be caught up in that desire.

“Kook, wasn’t it really fun?”

It looks like he can’t fool his mother. After all, wasn’t he so into acting that he earned the nickname “crazy guy” in his last life? However, the impression I felt while filming ‘August Man’ was different. The intense pressure of the filming set did not put pressure on my whole body, but only felt cozy. As if they were nestled in the warm arms of their parents.

“Today, everyone on the set is gathering together, and they said they would help. Go and ask Uyano. I thought that girl’s name was Yeonsu? She was really pretty. Ga seemed to be sad that filming was completely over, and I heard from Yeonsu’s mom. It seemed like Guk was following you a lot. “I’m sure my son will be very disappointed because he didn’t get to see his face for the last time.”

“It’s okay. I said goodbye to you on set the other day. And if I didn’t help you on a day like today, my mother wouldn’t have cleaned up the stall all night long by herself.”

“I am a truly happy person because I have such a good son. Still, I have a child, Kook…”

the mother said, caressing her son with a rough hand.

“I want my son to be happy.”

* * *

-The Seoul-bound Saemaeul train departing Busan Station at 7:45 a.m. is entering platform number 7.

The flight attendant’s voice echoes through the speakers. Deep regret was evident on Yeonsu’s face as she left Busan. Is it because of what happened while filming? As memories deepen, emotions are bound to be contained in every little detail. But of course there was something I couldn’t shake off.

“Yeonsu, the train is coming.”

Yeonsu raised her head at her mother’s words and looked at the train entering the station. Passengers waiting to board the train busily move to line up as the conductor tells them to stay outside the yellow line. If you get on that train now, you won’t have to visit Busan anymore. Even if I came to Busan for another filming, I wouldn’t be able to meet him. A sigh turned into deep regret and bloomed in the corner of my eyes.

“Daughter, why are you so upset?”

“Nothing.”

“Is it because England can’t see you?”

The mother did not know why her daughter had been so lethargic since morning. He was a child who was always wandering around the filming set. But things changed after I met the boy. Even when I spoke to him, I stayed right next to him and tried not to move away. Even more so, didn’t she follow that boy more than her mother? I didn’t hate that look. Because I know that everyone experiences first love at least once.

Moreover, since the other person was so dignified and straightforward, I had no intention of stopping him.

“Next time, Mom and I will come down to Yeongdo and go to Namhang Market one more time to see our brother.”

“really?”

“Of course. When have you ever seen a mother lie to her daughter?”

Only then did Yeonsu’s face seem to gradually brighten. The mother smiled bitterly as she saw her daughter’s expression change at the mere mention of the name England. Not Romeo and Juliet. A slight feeling of guilt, as if I had become the person who had accidentally separated the two people, pressed on my shoulders. Eventually, when the train arrived at the station, people began to climb up one by one. It was then.

‘The shoelace is untied.’

Yeonsu tried to walk, but stopped for a moment when she noticed that her shoelaces were untied. The waiting time for the train at the station was about five minutes, so the time was still good. It was when I was trying to tie my shoelaces with hands full of regret. Yeonsu’s mother’s eyes grew as big as a flower lantern and a smile appeared on her lips. The reason was simple.

“It’s a hit.”

I naturally raised my head when I heard a familiar voice. The boy I had been looking for was standing there, soaked in sweat. Like a scene from a movie, the boy got down on one knee and tied the girl’s shoelaces tightly. At that moment, the girl felt for the first time that her heart could pound as hard as a train horn.