I Will Live As An Actor - Chapter 20

I will live as an actor Episode 20

: Emotion.

From fluffy white rice and deep-boiled soup to the exquisite sour-tasting seasoned fish and seasoned poultry fish. It was a Korean meal filled with mother’s sincerity. It was prepared because guests who came from Seoul could not be sent away on an empty stomach.

“There isn’t much to prepare. Wow.”

“No! This is a sumptuous feast. I’m sorry that I bothered you for no reason.”

“No, when I looked at it, there was still time left for the train and you had a hard time coming down to your destination, but this will put my mind at ease. Thank you so much.”

“It’s embarrassing. It’s just that the timing…”

This is how the incident started. This was after putting down a handbag containing a bundle of money in a stylish manner on the fish stall. In the quiet silence, CEO Kim Seong-hwan’s boat horn sounded. The sound was so loud that my mother was startled.

“Does it fit in your mouth?”

“Very delicious!”

It appears that these words were not empty, but Kim Seong-hwan emptied his bowl of rice as if he was hiding his eyes. Even if you are the CEO of a company, how can you freely use the company’s money? I couldn’t even eat a single spoonful of rice because I was trying to communicate in all directions.

“Would you like some more air?”

Seonghwan Kim nodded briefly, having put a lot of seasoned beef in his mouth. My mother smiled happily at that sight. Two bowls of rice were emptied in succession, and the soup bowl was also neatly exposed to the bottom.

“Mother, what on earth is this soup made from? This is my first time eating something so sweet and salty in my life. Do you have a name for the food?”

“I don’t really have a name, but it’s something my mother often made for me in the past. It’s my baby who wrapped me in a wrapper and came down to Yeongdo. He didn’t eat anything and didn’t get wet, so I knew he was whining. That’s right, he was at sea. “It’s made by boiling various things I can find. Back then, I couldn’t even buy sugar, so I sweetened it with sweet potatoes. Even now, I still make it that way.”

It was food with such a story. I just ate the unknown soup my mother cooked for me as a matter of course, but never once wondered about the source. In that sense, I felt somewhat grateful to Seonghwan Kim for asking the question. I felt like I discovered another memory of my mother that I didn’t know about. After Kim Seong-hwan finished eating, he carefully put down his spoon and looked at his mother.

“What does your mother think about the British student continuing to act?”

“It’s good if you like Gook. Isn’t he the only son? I don’t know why he grows up so quickly and helps his mother even though he’s at an age where he wants to do and play a lot. Merchants at the market say he’s a dutiful son. But the parents who hear it are heartbroken. They wonder if I can’t go out and suffer like that.”

“Aida. Mom, don’t think like that. I just do it because I like it. It’s fun when I go to the market and meet a lot of people. If you think about gaining social experience early, what else can you not do?”

“Even though she says that, her feelings are different. Her fingertips are not soft and she sometimes makes mistakes, but when she sees that, she nags and worries. She carries all her worries on her weak shoulders. Boss, you did take care of your son, right? ”

At that time, his mother held Kim Seong-hwan’s hand and said,

“I don’t know what my baby said, but don’t listen too much. Even though he speaks softly, he knows it’s not like that on the inside. He won’t join the National Nuclear Regiment, and he’s not good at calculating or calculating. If my baby wants to do something, the boss will guide him well. .”

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-Will that noble person become mine?

Kim Seong-hwan’s mind was more complex than the horn of a train leaving Busan Station, as if someone had dropped paint on it. The dinner I ate in a shabby single room was like any other sumptuous meal. The boy was different from his peers. It would have been natural for him to feel ashamed of his poor circumstances as a child, but instead he was proudly presenting his life.

-That Norma is a guy with a lot of scars.

Seonghwan Kim was speechless at the sight of his mother and son. I have seen many people in the world, but having a lot of money does not necessarily mean being happy. To put it bluntly, isn’t this a world where parents and siblings fight each other over a piece of money? Although they had nothing, they were two people who seemed to have the greatest happiness in the world.

‘Are you saying you feel very unwell?’

-Mundi Jaseuja, where are the wounds? Are they only on the outside? I don’t know if there is a person in Namhang who doesn’t have a story to tell, but that old horse has a different story.

Jumbachi’s voice lingered in my head. The boy eventually declined 30 million won. They say you can’t receive this much money right away. However, perhaps because of a promise he made to himself, he said that if he brought a script he really liked, he would consider the offer. As if he knew that it couldn’t happen.

‘Money is definitely not the problem.’

At first, I thought the down payment wasn’t enough. Didn’t I witness the boy’s day with my own eyes? If I were my age, I would have been playing and kicking a ball on the playground with my friends. But for some reason, he was soliciting customers in front of the fish stall all day and even helped organize the stall. What on earth is the boy hiding, who never forgets his happy smile towards his mother even though he lives in a small room?

-If you try to catch him too hard, he’ll slip away with a loach. Since the wounds are something other people can’t even imagine, the only thing I can do is hope that the bar will be unlocked on its own. Just keep this one thing in mind. That Norma is an invaluable person in your life.

He didn’t come to visit the boy because of Jeombachi’s Jeomgwe. The acting of the boy he encountered at the filming site that day made Seonghwan Kim’s pupils tremble as if there had been an earthquake. Every time I recited each syllable, my heart pounded as if I was having a seizure. Didn’t our actor Park Soo-young also say that there is something different about that child’s acting from others?

“I want to eat Ssanghwacha….”

On the train back to Seoul. As I was eating cider with tough eggs, I was reminded of warm Ssanghwa tea. A boy who was like a scent lingering in my mouth. I can’t believe I felt the aura that I only feel from experienced actors in a black-haired country boy. The scent of Ssanghwa tea still seemed to linger at the tip of Kim Seong-hwan’s nose.

* * *

“Is this the smell of Mushin?”

The golden brown chicken is shiny. It is a whole market chicken fried in oil in a cauldron. The fragrant scent and crispy texture made my mouth water. People gathered one by one at the Namhang Market Merchants Association building.

“England! You’re giving me a treat!”

“Of course! Eat as much as you want today! It’s the little girl who pays for this!”

“Today is a feast! Thank you. Let’s enjoy the whole chicken that England bought us today!”

Merchants gathered at the Namhang Market Merchants Association building. It was a gratitude that I could never repay in return for treating the filming team the other day. Merchants with pure hearts have their eyes shining even at the sight of a whole market chicken. These are truly grateful people.

“Today is the first day that a drama starring Young-Kook airs!”

“You’re right. Isn’t that all he’s doing?”

“Wow, he’s all grown up. Who knew that England would come out on TV! Isn’t it true that great actors are born in Ikada South Port? If you’re my little girl, I’ll pull out a big banner and hang it at the entrance to the market!”

It was the first airing date of the drama ‘August Man’. Thankfully, the merchants at Namhang Market finished their hard work and gathered together without fail. The smell of thick beads of sweat lingered on clothes soaked in seawater, but rather than being unpleasant, it was rather pleasant. Isn’t it natural that they are the people who lived their days more intensely in Namhang, their home of life, than anyone else?

“But England, if you don’t show up a lot, it’s okay. People at the broadcasting station don’t show any affection and just fire you right away if you’re not good enough.”

“Choi Gaya! Shut that Mundi’s mouth before it gets tangled up! Where are you already making candles!”

“No, that’s not what I meant…”

“That’s that, I knew I’d get to see it sometime! What if our British child comes out with only a small amount of food? Today, we’re getting delicious whole chicken and sweet soy sauce!”

“Yes, I cancel what I said earlier! This guy’s snout is always a problem, so why don’t we come here to see something! We’re going to show up for England to see everything!”

“You speak the truth out of kindness! I’ll give you a chicken leg as a reward!”

Namhang (南港) is a friendly place. Just as the height of rolling waves is not constant, the appearance of people is also varied. However, it is an inseparable symbiotic relationship, like seaweed and the creatures that play in the seawater. Isn’t that still the case? They sing sea shanty songs together as if their voices have never been louder.

“Let’s sleep! Focus now! Let’s begin!”

The local broadcast was turned off for a moment at the shout of the merchant president. When the opening sequence came out on the cathode ray tube, you could almost hear everyone swallowing their saliva.

‘Well done.’

Just by looking at the opening sequence, you could tell that a lot of effort was put into it. Although it was the debut work of a famous producer and writer Choi Eun-sook, the broadcasting station seems to be putting a lot of effort into it. Eventually, when the curtain rose with the sign indicating episode 1, everyone stood in front of the TV.

“Kiya, it’s cool!”

After the drama ended and there was a moment of silence, an exclamation broke out. Everyone was unanimously responding enthusiastically. That’s because the first episode of The Man in August was truly a British story. I expected it to take up a lot of screen time since it was the child protagonist, but I never thought it would be like this. Even more so, what was the acting like?

“I’m still dumbfounded. I wonder if we’ve been watching this British jumma for a day or two, but in the drama, he’s talking like a complete idiot. Choi Ga, look at my arm, you can see the fat on my chest!”

“Thank God I didn’t end up with chicken skin! I almost dropped the glass when I was drinking it!”

“Hey, I’m a popular person. I thought he was a heavenly businessman, but Ijeboi Wanjey is a different actor! In my opinion, Yeongguk did the best acting. Miss Yang, please say something! I’m busy watching a drama on the day of my first birthday!”

“Thank you, quietly, Haisei! Can’t you see that I’m feeling a lingering emotion right now? Are you going to keep acting? In my eyes, you’re a heavenly actor!”

I wiped my dry lips. Don’t you know the pain of the past life? I vowed never to become an actor again. Just as there is no paradise because of human greed and desire. The same goes for actors. Because of the actor’s selfishness and desire, there can be no end to acting. I was so crazy about the smoke again that I didn’t want to miss my surroundings. It was then.

“Hmm? Kook! Please comfort your mother.”

My mother is shaking her shoulders. He was shaking so violently that even his wrinkled fingertips were shaking slightly. Wasn’t it like this in my last life too? The old mother would not have left the TV screen to see her son on TV. However, the heartless son did not mention his mother in any media or even at the awards ceremony.

The boy wrapped his arms around his mother’s shoulders. It was only when the small arms wrapped around my mother’s heavy shoulders that the trembling seemed to stop.

“It’s okay to cry.”

My mother was smiling with reddened eyes.

“How great is England! Wow, a crying bridge! Would the main character be crying on an auspicious day like today? Wouldn’t it be nice to make a sea of tears as a group?”

“It’s so good that you’re so happy. When I see Gook, who I like so much, I suddenly burst into tears and now I’m all crying.”

It was my mother’s voice full of joy that I had never heard before. There were tears on my mother’s face, but she didn’t look sad. Like a person who has everything. Then I realized. The fact that my mother’s happiness that I had longed for was not far away. The bar that had been locked in the boy’s heart like a lie began to open little by little.