I Will Live As An Actor - Chapter 6
I will live as an actor Episode 6
: Joy, shock, déjà vu.
What words can you use to evaluate the boy’s acting?
The famous producer felt dizzy and stuck in the mud, unable to move. The boy’s acting boasted a captivating power that viewers could not escape from. Writer Choi Eun-sook was no different. She had an ecstatic expression on her face, as if she were a butterfly in a dream.
“Writer Choi.”
One short word poured cold water into the silence.
“Did you choose that scene on purpose?”
“Yes, I never thought I could memorize everything in such a short period of time. Since I was so confident, I was curious about how I would handle a scene that requires emotional changes, and I actually didn’t expect it…” “Wow
. “It’s a monster, it’s a monster…”
The question that arose at the end of the blurred words was natural. The boy I met at Namyeong Market was truly a filial son with utmost filial piety. Taking advantage of that, I chose a scene where he shows his immoral side towards his mother. It was a choice that stemmed from the question of whether a beginner could actually perform an act he had never done before. Nevertheless.
“Did you see my expression earlier?”
“I saw it. It was so creepy. All my hair stood on end.”
“Don’t say anything. I never thought I would regret not bringing a camera so much. He makes facial expressions as if each frame is cut off. That’s how they usually do it in theater productions. “He is also an actor who has advanced stage acting skills.”
It wasn’t wrong. England’s facial expressions were enough to make the famous producer who was watching from the side open his mouth. In a split second, numerous facial expressions changed as if they were cut off frame by frame. Didn’t the godfather of Hollywood, David Walk Griffith, say this?
A true actor’s performance in a close-up camera shot is not an exaggerated gesture, but a momentary emotion that comes out in extreme detail. If Griffith had faced a script reading in England, he might have jumped out of his coffin and applauded.
“As if projecting a subject into a camera, the British student seemed to think of my gaze as a camera lens. Not only did he control his distance, but even his vocalization and tone of voice were different.”
“No way.”
It wasn’t just one thing that gave me goosebumps.
“At first, I thought it was just a coincidence, so I deliberately tried to change my posture and rest my chin, but each time, I acted according to the direction of my gaze. Didn’t writer Choi feel it too? That subtle change in acting.”
An actor who is overwhelmed by the other person’s performance cannot feel anything. All I can feel is the illusion that I am being held captive. At that moment, England really became ‘Kim Ha-jin’, so Eun-sook Choi didn’t even notice it. If Choi Eun-sook had insight enough to notice all the changes in England, she should have been a director or an actor rather than a writer. Either way, Choi Eun-sook’s mind was focused elsewhere.
‘Because that’s what the script said.’
I couldn’t forget that voice that spoke calmly. It was as if I had found my muse, like a wake-up call. Yoo Myung, still unable to overcome his shock, wiped his dry lips with a serious expression.
“I’ve only ever seen one person act like that.”
“Who?”
An actor who is trapped and obsessed within the script. An actor who can show more than that. Was his acting a result of hard work, or was he an innate genius? What kind of person will he be in the art of acting? Yoo Myung felt an eerie sense of déjà vu, as if he was watching a script reading by a great actor whom he had met a long time ago, and Choi Eun Sook felt as if her limits as a writer were being tested. Eventually, both people’s eyes simultaneously turned to an empty, empty spot.
* * *
The summer sea is a series of ensembles. The cries of seagulls. From the horns of fishing boats quivering at the dock to the rhymes of the auctioneer at the live fish market. It is a series of hymns reminiscent of Sarasate’s Carmen Fantasy. Moreover, the life of the fish splashing in the red basin expresses sensuality and liveliness, so it is truly a scene of life!
“Kook, you don’t have to come out like this early in the morning.”
“What should I do if I don’t get enough sleep in the morning? And how will my mother move all this stuff in a wheelchair by herself?”
Although he has fern hands, he is still a man. England, who was leading the car, had sweat like morning dew on his forehead. My mother just feels sorry for England. But England felt even more sorry and saddened by the fact that this was all he could do for his mother. It was a time when fish stalls were lined up in the maze-like alleys of Namhang Market.
“uh?”
This was after laying out fresh live fish on the fish stall. England’s eyes widened when he spotted a familiar figure wandering among the Busan ladies. Eventually, England, rubbing his eyes with his sleeve, was able to confirm its identity.
“Mom, I still have time to start the business. I’m going to go somewhere for a moment.”
The mother nodded happily as she watched her son rushing away. Yes, summer vacation is a time when children are excited and cannot use their own hands. If I were my age, it would have been time to get out of Namhang Market and play in the playground with my friends. Thanks to my son, things have been easy, but the feeling of regret has only grown. Rather, the departure from England served as a relief to my mother.
“hey.”
England spoke to a person wandering around the Namhang Market. Bushy hair and unkempt beard. The eyes are slanted, which may make one look lazy, but the eyes are as bright as if they were set with jewels.
“Are you the actor who played the role of Dojeong in the play Days of Joy?”
“Do you know me, student?”
“You know, I’m a big fan of Song Jeong-seok.”
Was it because I encountered someone I knew from my past life? It was England that I impulsively jumped into without even realizing it. Actor Song Jeong-seok Twenty years later, there was no one in Korea who did not know him.
An actor who burst out of theater and swept dramas and movies. Of course, because he is so prolific, we do not know every single movie and drama he has appeared in since his minor roles. However, in his past life, he was the actor he admired the most. A famous actor who was always in the top five when selecting a national actor in Korea. Isn’t it said in Buddhism? There is no meeting without a reason.
“Really Jin?”
On the other hand, Song Jeong-seok is in a dazed mood. Also, he is an actor who has not yet made a name for himself in theater. Moreover, Days of Joy was screened in places such as Yeongeuk-ro, Seoul. Moreover, even the role of Do-jeong appears only a few times in the play.
“Because it’s real.”
But the boy’s eyes did not tell lies. Rather, isn’t it burning passionately as if you are facing someone you admire so much?
“Thank you, thank you so much. I never imagined that I would meet my first fan from such a far away place. Actually, I was cast for a minor role in a drama set in Busan this time. So, I came down here without any hesitation because I wanted to at least learn the dialect. From the first day, I was a pickpocket. Because of this. I don’t have a place to sleep and my ticket to go to Seoul was stolen. It’s so stupid, right?”
“Pickpocket? What about the police station?”
“They said they couldn’t find the culprit. Sigh.”
A look of resentment appeared in the corners of Song Jeong-seok’s eyes. Did Robbins Crusoe feel this way? I feel like I’ve been dropped off on a remote island with no relatives. He didn’t have a single agency, and even the notebook containing the phone number of the casting director who cast him was pickpocketed.
England was able to understand his situation immediately. These days, the peak season is here, pickpockets are rampant, and even CCTV is not properly installed. Accordingly, since Song Jeong-seok’s appearance and appearance gave the impression that he was closer to a homeless person, one might have assumed that the homeless person was lying.
“You said you came to learn dialect, right?”
“yes?”
“Then try learning it today. Follow me.”
Britain gave Song Jeong-seok an unreasonable favor. This is because in his past life, when he left the stage and entered the drama and film world, the only person who gave him advice and guided his acting was famous actor Song Jeong-seok. Dae Seon-bae bought me warm soup and a glass of soju. I still haven’t forgotten the favor I received from him.
-England, are you wondering why I’m helping you right now?
With the sound of the soju glass being put down, the old actor’s eyes became red.
-I jumped from theater to drama at exactly the same age as you. There was no one to help me at that time. It was so hard and lonely. So, if you meet someone like you in the future, don’t pass by and help him. A glass of soju is no big deal.
At those words, the young actor’s eyes turned red.
An old actor who projected his past self in the image of Jang Young-guk, who was in his 30s. Isn’t it amazing what cause and effect is? The relationship that the adult Jang Young-guk had made was directed to the boy Jang Young-guk. I was about to repay the debt I owed him. A relationship that must be overcome in order to pursue a life without regrets. Just as it is fate for an angler to catch a big fish.
“Kook, who is this person..?”
The mother was startled and looked at her son and Song Jeong-seok alternately. England caught the fateful nobleman it had encountered in its past life.
“I’m a part-time worker today.”
* * *
‘Oh my god, Saksin.’
Song Jeong-seok was exhausted, as if his whole body had been beaten. Selling fish at Namhang Market was not an easy task. But it was clear that I gained something from it. Native pronunciation dialect and Busan people’s unique intonation and tone. It was clearly the same word, but even the breathing, beat, and the way of speaking with the tip of the lips and tongue were different.
‘I heard it’s really amazing.’
Song Jeong-seok looked at the boy who pampered him today. At first, I thought he was an unusual child. However, at the Namhang Market, the boy was a confident man, and in terms of plays, he was a great actor who could monopolize the entire Proscenium stage.
As soon as the boy acted and moved his lips, everyone in Namhang Market became a tourist and paid attention to the boy. Despite the pressure, the boy’s shoulders were as light as a feather and his hand gestures were cheerful. If an actor were to have a natural talent, wouldn’t it be the power to focus people like the boy?
“I’m upset that a guest came but there wasn’t much to prepare.”
“No, this is a sumptuous feast.”
Song Jeong-seok waved his hand as he felt sorry for his mother. It is a dinner that is sufficient for two mothers and children. I just felt sorry for being caught in the middle of it all. Moreover, the wallpaper, which had turned yellow like a maple leaf over time, and the mold here and there broke his heart even more. However, there was no trace of shame or sadness on the boy’s face, as if he had read Song Jeong-seok’s thoughts. Just full of happiness.
“Brother, you have to sleep in the kitchen today, is that okay? I’ll put you on the softest blanket. It’s the first morning, but you don’t need to get any rest at all.”
“Oh my, I’d be grateful anywhere as long as I had a place to lie down. But, no matter what, England, you and I are the same age. Shouldn’t we call you uncle?”
“Brother, haven’t you seen me call a grandmother over 60 years old ‘sister’ at the market?”
“Yes, England recognizes your friendliness. But I don’t know if I can stay in this house where my mother is too for a day. I feel so sorry for you and my mother that I don’t know how I can go up to Seoul and repay this debt. Thank you so much, but I don’t know if I can stay here for a day. “I feel like I owe a lot to you.”
“Whatever the debt is, if you meet someone like you in the future, don’t pass it by and help me. A warm bed and a bowl of rice is no big deal.”
This is a guy that can’t be overcome with words. Still, I didn’t hate it. Rather, how can he not know that he is being treated comfortably because he is afraid that he will feel burdened? Song Jeong-seok pushed back the tears that suddenly welled up and shoved white rice into his mouth. The young actor had a hunch. He knew that this feast, more delicious than ever, would become the foundation for his acting in the future.