The Crazy Villain Regains His Sanity - Chapter 1
return of the crazy, disastrous villain.
The crazy villain regains his senses / Kim Hyun
-woo, Episode 1.
I became a wild beast drunk with power and became a bloodthirsty beast.
I killed and killed what I could see, what caught my senses, and what bothered me.
I killed everyone, including those who had murderous intentions, those who were greedy, and those who tried to take advantage of me.
Blood Master.
This is the name the world calls me.
Occasionally I would come back to my senses, but only briefly.
The thirst for blood quickly took over and took away control of my body.
An indelible feeling of self-loathing swept over me.
If I hadn’t been greedy for power, none of this would have happened. I just wanted to be stronger than others and do better than others.
The reward was hands that never dried.
At some point, I felt like I didn’t even have a thirst for blood.
Is it because the goal of staining the world with blood has been achieved?
When you have doubts about a situation you don’t understand.
I began to lose consciousness again.
* * *
The feeling you get when you are consumed by madness and control of your body is taken away is the same.
The world becomes hazy, as if there is fog, and a heavy pressure presses down on my chest. Inside, I struggle, unable to move. Another me, who has gone crazy as if laughing at me, runs out without any hesitation and satisfies my thirst for blood.
I tried again and again, but what came back was ridicule.
Hematoma is ultimately a monster created because I could not control myself. Only I can erase this monster.
Every time I struggled, I was repeatedly swallowed by it, but I did not give up and took advantage of the opportunity.
Hematoma is another me. The abilities, experiences, and thoughts that the hematoma possessed were both his and mine.
Then, at some point, my blurred consciousness became clearer and I felt the senses around me becoming clearer.
I no longer felt the madness of the guy who was piercing my brain.
Did I overcome him? Or is he trying to deceive me in a new way?
What made me relax my guarded mind was the nostalgic smell that seeped into my nostrils.
Mother’s soybean paste stew.
My mother’s food that I thought I would never be able to eat again.
I was looking forward to tasting it again, but I couldn’t bring myself to visit for fear that my family would suffer further damage because of me.
I was so driven by blood that I pushed my family into the quagmire and lived with repeated regret.
I call him a ‘guy’, but in the end, it was all my karma. In a situation where I cannot die on my own, the best I can do is to regain my freedom, atone for myself, and kill myself.
Aside from that, it is a great blessing for me to be able to taste my mother’s food again. Even if it’s a dream or a deception on his part, it doesn’t matter.
I thanked God and reflexively reached for it. And he licked up the contents he felt in his hand, just like he licked blood.
It’s definitely my mother’s soybean paste stew. It was delicious.
“······Junho!”
A sound is heard at the same time.
The moment I heard the sound, the surrounding scenery began to change.
What was in front of me was my parents’ faces.
“Junho!”
Could it be a dream?
The reason I thought it wasn’t real is because my parents were so young.
My parents thought I would keep that image for the rest of my life. However, as he caused many bloody scares and lost his body to the guy, all I could do was watch from afar sometimes.
My parents were getting older all the time. I shed tears of blood as I watched him weaken day by day.
You could say it was a dream. I was grateful to be able to see this scenery once again.
However, what my senses accepted was as vivid as reality.
When you can’t distinguish between reality and a dream and make a confused expression.
My parents were looking at me with devastated expressions.
“Junho. “Why do you eat soybean paste stew with your hands?”
“by hand?”
When I reflexively lowered my head, my hands were covered in soybean paste stew soup and ingredients.
I thought it was a dream.
But what is this sense of reality?
“no way······.”
Once again, I scooped up the soybean paste stew with my hands and put it in my mouth.
I can feel the taste. From the savory taste of soybean paste to the taste of gently crumbling tofu, potatoes and zucchini.
The dream couldn’t have been this vivid.
The image of my young parents, and even the image of myself that has not been consumed by madness.
It’s not just his deception. I have returned to the past before I made a mistake.
“Oh my, Junho! “Why do you scoop up food with your hands?”
This was the reason why I was able to smile despite my mother’s surprised voice and my father’s gaze that looked at me like I was crazy.
“Because it’s delicious. “It tastes better when you eat it with your hands.”
I once again ate the soybean paste stew with my hands.
My mother’s food, with a spoonful of seasoning called longing added, was very delicious.
* * *
When I woke up the next day, the world had not changed.
I didn’t go crazy again, nor did I have a thirst for blood.
“Are you really back in the past?”
I was grateful to be able to soak up the sunlight sober.
I never thought the world would be this happy just because I didn’t go crazy. I can’t remember the last time I had a good night’s sleep because I was always being chased and my life was threatened.
He always whispered to me. Give up any more resistance. You and I are separate, but ultimately we are the same. He whispered to become completely one with himself and become the only being in the world. I refused and tried to get everything from him.
Every time that happened, what came back was his ridicule. And, as if to show off, he unleashed a bloody act, staining his hands with the blood of countless people.
That’s how I became the worst villain in history.
In reality, I was an incompetent 25-year-old unemployed person.
I got up from my seat, rolled up the blanket, stretched briefly, and came out to the living room. I was greeted by the smell of soybean paste stew bubbling in the kitchen and the sound of a knife cutting ingredients.
I took a deep breath and accepted the smell into my stomach. The more I said this, the more my mother’s expression towards me became depressed.
“Good morning.”
“okay. You woke up so early?”
“Okay, how can I help you?”
“No, it’s okay. But are you really okay?”
“What?”
“That’s not true. no.”
“haha.”
It’s because I dipped my hand in soybean paste stew yesterday. Even when I thought about it, I thought he was crazy.
No, since he was originally called a crazy person, does that mean he was a crazy person who did something crazy? While dealing with hematoma, I never thought I would be normal. If I hadn’t broken somewhere, I wouldn’t have been able to endure his ridicule and deception.
Both he and I were broken. So, the top priority was to avoid showing as much damage as possible. How can I look normal?
Should we catch at least a level 7 harmful monster right away? Then wouldn’t you be happy to see your son’s skills?
“Eat.”
“yes.”
“Wash your hands. “Eat with spoon and chopsticks.”
“all right.”
After yesterday, there was an unusual sadness in his eyes when he looked at me. I guess my behavior was immature.
Even though I was treated like a child, it was still nice to be back in the past.
“······.”
My parents didn’t say anything during the meal. Even though I told him that he would clean up after the meal, he just stopped me and finished cleaning up before heading out to work.
Left alone, I sat on the chair in front of the computer and lost in thought. Do we really need to catch a level 7 harmful monster? But wouldn’t you be surprised because it’s so big? Were there any of the 7 levels of harm?
I tried my head, but it wasn’t there.
In an unavoidable situation, I erased my plans and focused on the current situation first.
“It was a time when I was unemployed.”
When I was a teenager, I was judged as a suitable candidate for Awakening. I tried to apply for recruitment at large companies and large guilds from the age of 20, but I struggled for three years.
After that, he was despondent and locked himself in his room, spending two wasted years, driving a nail into his parents’ hearts.
That was me, 25-year-old Choi Jun-ho.
It may have seemed pathetic to others, but my perspective as someone with 25 years of experience as a rare slayer was somewhat different.
“I was a harmless guy. “It can’t be this great.”
At least I killed it because it was annoying, killed it because it was boring, just killed it and didn’t suck its blood when it wasn’t necessary.
It was a moment when I felt very proud of myself for not doing anything.
“But has this kind of life sucked the blood of my parents?”
Still, it’s not real blood, so wouldn’t it be okay? It’ll be okay.
As I looked back on the distant past, which is now a distant memory, many old memories came to mind.
At this time, I don’t think I had any thoughts.
I just blamed others.
I blamed the world and myself for being incompetent. It seems that this led to a thirst for power and that he did whatever it took to become stronger.
I thought that if I gained strength, wealth and power would come to me.
The result of this immature thinking was the birth of the worst villain, Hematoma.
I gained the power I wanted, but it was not without a price. My family suffered great harm due to my choice.
My parents suffered from surveillance all their lives for the sin of misbehaving their son.
A younger sister who, despite her talent, was unable to develop it due to the fault of her older brother.
No two mistakes are the same. I wanted to be a son my family could be proud of, not a blood-crazed villain.
So what does a proud son look like?
What came to mind at this moment was hunting harmful level 7 monsters.
“I’ll ask you later.”
I lay in bed and waited for my parents.
* * *
“···What do you want to happen?”
Choi Jin-gyu and Lee Young-hee, who returned from farming, blinked at their son’s question.
It was the same yesterday, but I couldn’t get used to my son’s changed appearance.
At first, I thought I might be crazy, but I thought it was better than being pointlessly angry and blaming the world.
And instead of having a stiff expression, he was now smiling quite a bit.
“You’ve been worrying me for so long. “I’m going to come to my senses and do it right.”
“······.”
“I want our Junho to become a civil servant.”
Unlike Choi Jin-gyu, who remained blank, Lee Young-hee quickly expressed her wish.
“A civil servant?”
“okay. Even hunters who aren’t that powerful can become public officials, right? “Not all public servant hunters hunt monsters and apprehend villains… Huh?”
“What do you think, father?”
In response to his son’s question, Choi Jin-gyu felt Lee Young-hee’s hand poking him from the side.
It was a silent signal for me to agree, but I couldn’t ignore my son’s eyes that seemed to have a keen view of the world.
It was still strange to see the change overnight, but I wanted to envision a better future than the present, so as a father, how could I stop him?
“I hope it gives meaning to taking on the challenge again. To put it bluntly, it would be better if you do what you want.”
“Isn’t there anything in particular you want to do?”
“Then why don’t you think about it now?”
“What are you talking about when Junho tries to get his mind together!”
Lee Young-hee shouted from the side, but Choi Jin-gyu’s eyes were fixed on his son.
“I’m not just saying this. “Junho hasn’t found a way yet, but if he finds the right way, he can get a decent job.”
“Are you saying that when you know it’s not easy?”
“It depends on what Junho does. “What do you think?”
“Before that, I’m curious about what my father thinks. “How about a civil service hunter?”
“It’s not bad.”
“is that so?”
“You are sent to a relatively less dangerous mission, you serve your country, and you receive a decent salary. “If you like stability, this will be the ideal job for you.”
“Then I will do that.”
“Aren’t you thinking about other places?”
“Because it looks the easiest. “It’s also like being at home more.”
The son paused for a moment, looked into his wife’s eyes, and then spoke.
“And since my parents said it was good, I wanted to do it too.”
“······.”
There was silence for a moment as my son expressed his sincerity.
Choi Jin-gyu was overcome with emotion, and his wife also seemed to be so moved that she had tears in her eyes.
My immature son grew up overnight.
“Keuhumhum!”
“of course. It’s just that the income isn’t big, but it’s nice to have stability! Junho, you will do well.”
“But to become a public servant hunter, you have to be at least level 1.”
Choi Jin-gyu continued to speak despite his wife’s hand poking his side again.
“Can you do level 1?”
Level 1 That was Choi Jun-ho’s betrayal. Of course, Choi Jun-ho, who returned, didn’t care at all.
“You’re level 9 too, right?”
* * *
“Our Junho has changed a lot.”
“Because men grow up at some point.”
That’s what I said, but I didn’t know that my son, who was a troublemaker, would change so suddenly.
When I was scooping up the soybean paste stew with my hands, I thought I had reached a point of no return.
The dignified appearance he showed after that was quite satisfying.
“Can I do well?”
“I will do it. “Because I probably didn’t say it with a normal mindset.”
“But it wasn’t easy to be recognized as an awakened person…”
“We’ll have to find a way. All we have to do is trust and watch over you.”
“Yes, of course.”
Trusting and watching over my son. It was never as easy as it sounds, but the two decided to believe this time.
“Anyway, at level 9, Junho is really bluffing too. “I wonder who it looks like like that.”
“Kuhum!”
* * *
I decided on my career path after listening to my parents, but I think it was a pretty good choice.
Considering that he was unable to control his abilities before returning and suffered from persistent tracking after being labeled as a villain, becoming a civil servant hunter is the best choice.
A civil servant hunter is a proper civil servant.
Guaranteed stable employment and moderate work intensity.
Although it is only a small amount, it also holds public power.
What an ecstatic sound the sound of public power is. There was no clearer proof of my determination to change as I started living a new life than to stand on the side of public power.
For money, you can catch a few monsters when you have time, and there is a bounty on the villain’s head as well. Even if you become a public servant hunter, you will never run out of money.
Now that I had decided, it was time to put it into action.
My plan is to go to Seoul and take the civil service hunter exam. At the Seoul house where I stayed two years ago, my younger sister, Choi Yoon-hee, was currently preparing for a job.
My sister, another sore finger. This time, I need to help him do well without blocking his path.
However, since I have never taught anyone before, that part was a bit of a challenge.
“If I roll until I die, my skills will improve, right?”
The guys who didn’t improve their skills are all dead, so they have no choice but to improve their skills. Since she is a younger sister, moderation is the key.
I made a plan for the future and trained myself by going up and down the mountain to wake up my body that was sluggish. Then, suddenly, I stopped at the sight of my parents’ orchard and headed there.
“I was indifferent.”
Just because you don’t kill people or suck blood doesn’t mean you’ve reformed.
The size of the orchard, which is not easy to see at a glance, shows the hardships my parents went through.
A world transformed by the appearance of monsters.
After looking at the apple trees that had been ruined by harmful monsters combined with native creatures, I walked around the orchard and went into the house.
“The number of harmful monsters has increased these days.”
A bitter smile appeared on my father’s lips at my question.
“It was fine until then, but they say monsters also evolve. “It is time to use more expensive extermination equipment.”
“What is the price?”
“It’s expensive. “As the monsters evolve, the price goes up.”
“I will solve it.”
“Is there a way?”
“yes.”
“If it’s a dangerous method, you don’t have to do it.”
“It’s not particularly dangerous. “A little annoying?”
When you are chased, the awakened person is an awakened person, but the monsters that come at you at any time are also annoying.
Having lived on the run many times, I knew well how to chase away demons. No matter how strong a villain is, eating, sleeping, and sleeping don’t change.
In fact, I got so lazy later that I killed every monster I found.
“Yes, please.”
“It won’t take long.”
After going into my room, I changed into comfortable sweats, took my truck keys, and went out.
Ultimately, the extermination mechanism is to drive out low-grade harmful monsters.
“Is level 3 harmful enough?”
* * *
My son left around lunchtime and there was no news until evening and night. Lee Young-hee’s worries were beyond the limit when she saw that even her smartphone, her means of communication, had been left behind.
“It’s okay, right?”
“It’ll be okay.”
“Aren’t you overdoing it? “It could be that they are trying to act hastily to show that they have changed.”
“It didn’t look like that.”
Choi Jin-gyu shed a sigh of relief as he recalled his son’s calm appearance, as if he were going out for a drink around town.
“They even dragged the truck. “You should have asked me where I was going!”
Choi Jin-gyu shook his head at Lee Young-hee’s voice, which became quite impatient.
“Let’s wait a little longer.”
At that time, the sound of a truck engine was heard outside.
“Junho!”
Choi Jin-gyu followed behind as Lee Young-hee got up from her seat and sprinted away.
The couple who came out could see a huge object loaded into the truck bed.
“What is that?”
“Could you please turn on the light?”
Younghee Lee wanted to ask what that was right away, but she turned on the front yard light with the intention of checking and asking.
And I almost fainted.
“Me wild boar?”
A huge wild boar, twice as big as an ordinary wild boar, was lying in the luggage compartment.
“It is an eco-friendly, harmful monster extermination organization. Wait.”
“······.”
When Choi Jun-ho went inside, the couple left alone was looking at the wild boar with blank stares.
The wild boar, which was level 3, was a ferocious monster that even experienced hunters had to risk their lives for.
The tough leather, which can withstand deadly attacks and bullets that cannot be hidden, is what causes the most damage to farms.
But you caught it.
At that time, the boar’s body shook.
“He’s squirming just now. “Aren’t you alive?”
Lee Young-hee, who had become contemplative, made a fuss. Choi Jin-gyu didn’t show it, but he felt like his heart was sinking.
After a while, Younghee Lee said as she caught her son carrying a basin.
“Joo Jun-ho! “Isn’t that monster alive?”
“You caught it cleanly, right?”
“Are you crazy now? “Why did you capture the monster alive!”
“are you okay.”
Choi Jun-ho put the wild boar in the luggage compartment on the floor.
“······.”
The couple was speechless at the sight of their son casually putting down a wild boar that weighed hundreds of kilograms, perhaps even a ton.
An even more surprising sight came next. When Choi Jun-ho grabbed the boar’s neck and turned it, the neck spun around with a crunching sound.
Squeak! Kwiiyi!
The wild boar, with its eyes wide open, tried to make a fuss, but died in an instant.
Afterwards, the blood gushing out began to be collected into the basin.
“······.”
Choi Jin-gyu and Lee Young-hee gaped at the unbelievable sight.
The monster that was most important to avoid when encountered in the mountains was being treated like a toy by my son.
“This wild boar is level 3 harmful, so if you spread its blood across the orchard, other lower level things will not be able to get near it.”
If you hang up the bones, they will think there are higher-level predators and won’t approach them.
“The extermination mechanism ultimately mimics the body odor of a top predator. “It’s a structure where the prey doesn’t wander where the predator is.”
Choi Jun-ho’s hand dug into the boar’s stomach. Then, after digging inside, he pulled out his red-stained hand, brought it to his mouth, and licked up the blood. A deep smile appeared on his lips, as if he had tasted a delicacy.
“ah! The blood is fresh. “The smell and taste are strong, and it’s definitely effective as an extermination device.”
“······.”
The couple was unable to say anything as they saw their son smiling brightly with his bloody mouth.