The Demon Prince goes to the Academy - Chapter 489

Chapter 489:

I have too many thoughts.

On the other hand, Artha has no idea.

So when I said that such a difference would occur, Arta nodded as if she agreed to a certain extent.

“Strictly speaking, I don’t think much of it. Not that I’m stupid, of course.”

“no. You’re honestly a bit of an idiot.”

“Le Lena… … . Why am I stupid?”

“Did you forget? Did you fall off a cliff while playing hide-and-seek with Ellen and break your leg?”

“Oh no! when to talk… … !”

Isn’t that crazy, not stupid?

I barely managed to crumple a word that came out of nowhere. Arta’s face became red due to the sudden dark history.

“no… … ! That’s because if Ellen played anything, she would win, so I did it because I wanted to win at anything… … !”

“So you’re an idiot. You might even be dead for real if Ellen hadn’t found you falling off the cliff. To put it bluntly, I wanted to win, so I even clung to the cliff, but Ellen found you, so I couldn’t win.”

“… … .”

Lizaira’s little ones were also spectacular to play with.

The guy clenching his teeth and clinging to the cliff in an attempt to overcome it, or Ellen looking for it again.

“Anyway, when I think about Arta’s troubles from long ago, there’s no end to it. It’s mainly accidents that happened while trying to win against Ellen.”

“The old story… … . stop… … .”

“Do you know what happened before?”

As Lena talked, she seemed excited and began to recite the story of Arta’s accident.

The story of how I nearly drowned while holding my breath during a diving competition in a valley.

A story about a person who climbed a tree to steal a bird’s egg and fell and broke his head.

The story of how I fainted when I was mimicking Ellen diving at a waterfall where I was zazen, but got into my stomach instead of my head.

The story of how I got angry at losing to Ellen while learning swordsmanship, so I swung a wooden sword and got hit in the stomach and fainted.

As I listened, it was almost all about Ellen.

He was such an unusual guy even when he wasn’t a Dum-Dum-Chung, so when he did anything, Ellen won everything, so Arta was so angry that he tried to win far and wide, even if it was forced, and then collapsed on his own.

Hearing about Ellen’s past from her childhood friends gave me quite a new impression.

Even when I was young, I thought that a genius was a genius.

I can feel the sadness of childhood friends who have such a genius as their friend.

Of course, you said that the arms are bent inward.

If you imagine Ellen as a child playing so violently with the kids, something.

something

I felt my heart tickle.

If you think that Ellen, who always has a hardened expression, wasn’t like that at all in the past.

I wonder what it would have looked like in real life.

I think it’s cute.

But when I thought about it, I couldn’t help but feel depressed.

No matter what I think of Ellen or what Ellen thinks of me.

Because our relationship always ends up with the conclusion that it can’t go back to the way it was.

“Anyway, I can’t count how many times you’ve been injured trying to imitate Ellen or win. You have to follow what should be followed.”

“stop… … . stop… … .”

Depending on what you think, Ellen could be an unlucky childhood friend, but these two didn’t seem to have that kind of feeling for Ellen.

“Arta is really a guy who only looks ahead. You don’t know what will happen later, so you just want to beat Ellen and imitate him, so you end up getting hurt.”

Arta could not refute Lena’s disastrous declaration.

“By the way, Reinhardt, you’ve said it before, but you seem to be thinking too much.”

I have a lot of thoughts.

That is also what I kept hearing from Lena and Arta.

A clear mind, a calm image, and a calm attitude.

It was actually only getting more and more difficult to maintain.

It’s been well over a month and a half since he left Edina.

And I still don’t even know when I’ll be able to leave this place with satisfactory achievements.

I don’t even have a chin for the next month.

then two months? Or three months?

If I leave Lizaira defeated by anxiety, I will never come back here.

Now I know what Luna meant.

I can’t achieve the next achievement if I’m restless because I can’t stand anxiety and nervousness. You have to overcome this situation and be able to move on to the next step.

Even if you can reach the master class at best, you cannot use your full strength if you lose fear and fear in the final fight.

So, Luna is teaching.

If you can’t keep your composure in this situation, it will be obvious later on.

No matter how nervous or anxious you are, you have to endure it, reach the next level, and make that power completely yours.

That’s why we force them to spend a frantic amount of time shutting themselves off from all outside information.

Even so, when my nervousness and anxiety grow because of things I don’t know, it gets bigger, not smaller.

So, I could focus my mind on the ultimate refined magical power enhancement, but I was in an environment where it was difficult to get used to it because of the anxiety that amplified over time.

The problem is that there are too many thoughts.

But I can’t do that if I don’t want to think.

I feel like I am being told that rice is not everything in life when my throat is grape juice.

I think I’m going to run out of breath, but if I tell you to calm down, that will happen.

“But wouldn’t it be right to do something like Arta in this case?”

“… … .”

“Nothing gets better by worrying about next year’s drought while harvesting this year’s potatoes.”

I knew at least that Lena wasn’t wrong.

“If you think too much, you end up thinking about useless things. So why don’t you forget about other things for a while and focus on what you have to do?”

At those words, I felt like I was awakened.

A lot of people have said that to me.

It was also something I said at one point.

After the first murder in the Dark Lands.

Ellen had said, holding my face covered in blood and looking me straight in the eyes.

Now is not the time to think.

So let’s do what we have to do first.

Harriot told me after the gate incident.

Now is not the time to think, let’s do what we have to do.

I have thought so too. So, I tried to move forward one step at a time.

However, now that I have left my responsibility, I have lost the mindset I had until now.

I’m anxious about things that haven’t happened but might happen.

I am nervous about this situation itself, which is cut off from the outside world.

Even though I know it can’t solve anything, I keep thinking about it obsessively.

Luna said that I had been sick with my heart because I had been patient for so long.

Lena says that you don’t have to think about things you don’t have to think about right now.

I don’t know if Luna is right or Lena is right.

However, it is true that the anxiety and impatience I feel cannot solve any problems I have.

Arta only thinks about what is in front of her nose.

The goal was to maintain magical power enhancement for a long time, so she only focused on strengthening magical power.

I have to do the same.

In this way, it is all meaningless to think about how many months later I will be able to get used to this power or what the situation will be like outside.

You can’t get an answer by worrying.

only action.

You can only get results through action, so you should stop worrying about unanswered questions.

“okay. I’ll try that.”

peace of mind.

Getting peace of mind in a situation where the mind can be peaceful doesn’t mean anything to me right now.

To have peace of mind even in situations where there can never be peace.

That is the clear view index and immovable mind that I need.

* * *

I think you shouldn’t think.

The fact that you shouldn’t think is already a thought.

I wonder if this is nonsense, but I am actually doing it.

To not think is not to think that you must not think, but literally to not think.

However, the obsession not to think about a person whose head is about to burst because of so many thoughts only intensifies neurosis.

And when you think about that, you naturally have no choice but to move on to thinking about what you shouldn’t think about.

Then I go to the stage where I think about things I shouldn’t be thinking about now, and I return to the starting point with the thought that I shouldn’t think about those things again.

The cartwheel of thoughts, a Möbius strip itself that seems like it’s going to go crazy, rolls.

“What should I do to not think of my mother?”

“… … ?”

No, you have your own way of thinking and you want to do it! Or teach me something!

“Do you want to go somewhere with me tomorrow?”

Are you finally going to tell me something?

* * *

The next day.

The expectation that Luna would finally teach me something was shattered in the morning.

-Luna

went into the warehouse and heard something rummaging around.

“Listen.”

What she took out of the shed was a shovel, a pickaxe, an ax and a forklift.

“… … Didn’t you want to teach me swordsmanship or meditation?”

“I don’t think I said that.”

Luna grabbed a shovel and an ax and lifted the fork.

And I quietly followed behind Luna, who was leading the way.

Luna crossed the hillside bordering Lizaira and walked all the way to somewhere.

And the place I arrived at was somewhere on the hillside.

“I need to create a new farmland. It will take a long time, so make up your mind.”

“… … yes?”

“Didn’t you ask how not to think?”

Luna pointed to this place that was no different from the middle of the forest.

“There is nothing better to relieve one’s thoughts than to do too many things.”

no.

this guy is real

Is it true that they are telling us to make a new field?

Doesn’t this suck?

“For now, cut down the trees in the area and move them to the village. After that, I will have to pull out all the roots.”

It’s not just on the ground, it’s the work of turning the forest into a field.

“Don’t use any holy relics.”

no.

Isn’t that too much!

“mother… … . is this right?”

“Hmm… … .”

At my words, Luna crossed her arms and tilted her head slightly as she looked at me.

“I keep telling you not to do it, my mother, my mother, but don’t you think I should treat you like a son instead of just talking?”

“ah.”

Luna smiles at me.

“Go to work, son.”

in my mind

i passed over

* * *

Luna began to work as a son.

In rural areas, children have the right labor force, so I couldn’t deny that.

Luna told me to work and left me in the forest area outside Lizaira and quickly went away.

It’s not just a grassy plain, it’s a forest.

If I cut down all the trees in this forest and cut down the firewood, I’ll have all the trees for Lizaira this year.

This isn’t just about making arable land, it’s a picture of eating pheasants and eating eggs, making me make a new arable land, and at the same time making a lot of trees?

There was even a condition not to use holy relics.

I see the forest in front of me and the ax, pickaxe, shovel and fork next to me.

After cutting down these trees, he cuts them down one by one, carries them on a fork, and goes back and forth between Lizaira.

You have to cut down all the trees and pull out the roots somehow.

When the work is done, you have to turn the ground with a pickaxe and remove all the small roots to make it good for farming.

that.

Can we finish it before winter, right?

He said his mouth was straight.

After saying useless things, it seems that I will not be able to go back to Edina within this year.

“Hmm… … .”

I’ve never cut down a tree with a sacred object. Of course, Luna told me not to use a holy object, so I don’t have any intention of using one.

First of all, I had to cut down the trees, so I picked up an axe.

It’s a monster, I’ve sliced it countless times, and it’s creepy, but I’ve also sliced people.

But, of course, I’ve never used an axe.

do the tree

You should know in your head that it’s hard work, but I’m someone.

If you record an A+ rank with a strength value of 26 or higher without magical power enhancement, and if you add magical power enhancement, isn’t it a monster that can demonstrate power of S rank or higher?

I don’t know if this work can make me forget my anguish and bring me clear images.

But something must be done.

“Whoa… … .”

Concentrate your mind and use extremely refined magical power enhancement.

power is enough

The important thing is not to simply cut down trees, but to become accustomed to sophisticated magical power enhancement.

In a highly concentrated state, use magical power enhancement and chop trees.

There are many trees.

I don’t know if I’ll get used to this power if I knock down all these trees.

I take that one step

quiet breathing.

In the wind blowing and the distant chirping of birds.

“Suck!”

I aimed my ax at the tree and swung it.

– Jjaeok!

It’s broken.

“uh… … ?”

Not a tree, but a sack.